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Two years and counting of this, don't know how much more I can take

Truckermomofsix's picture

Ok so first time posting here I haven't been on a forum in years thought that with Facebook they'd all but disappeared many years back when my 3 boys were young I belonged to a forum for the wives of over the road truckers and to this day still talk to  some of them thru social media. None of which will understand my current situation tho and it's getting more and more isolating and depressing by the day for me. So here goes.....I have three boys ages 18 16 and 14. They now live full time with bio dad, a former over the road driver who's now a corrections officer at the state looney bin. (DONT even get me started on the 17 years I wasted with that hypocrite who is only here in the us because he is a fugitive in his native Canada while yes he grew up and changed his ways he seems to forget the life of drugs and bikers that got him stuck here and blessed with three great kids and an amazing job and all he can do is talk crap about everyone) now up till 5 years ago I was ho,e with them full time, he got hurt needed surgery the company folded and so I ended up going back into working in the only business I know which is rent to own. Over the first 2 years I slowly began to see just how bad my situation was and went from loving dumb ass to babys momma to roommate as my boys became older they needed me less and I just couldn't deal with being in a one sided relationship with a house cactus anymore and began talking to an old flame. Over the next year Chris and I started talking more and more as I watched his marriage to his second wife fall apart. Now he and I dated for a short time when we were very young I was 16 and he 20 we lost contact thru no fault of either and just moved on. Then reconnected during all the bad crap 23 years later. We r both now in our 40s. He has 3 daughters by the same egg donor as I call her, ages 23, 18 and 17. Egg donor was the first marriage which she was a nut case and child services took the girls from her and eventually took away any rights she had. This in itself is a whole other long story for another time. Neither egg donor nor the ex wife really have had much contact or caused much drama it's the kids that are the issue. And while I do happen to have spent four years at the local university obtaining a bachelor's of psychology I am struggling to keep myself from losing my mind here. First the 18 year old finally moves out because her behavior was just so unmanageable that it was tough love or nothing and he did finally get on board with that when I got his parents and sister involved. We are maintaining the course with her so she's not here, we allowed the 23 year old to move in about a year after we had been living together due to her being used by her lazy jobless aunt and uncle as a means of income (this whole family is a freaking mess I could just go on and on and on) of course that created a rift between the 18 yo and the other 2 who sided against her nonstop which so,e of this was absolutely justified because I saw it daily. He's now seeing that I wasn't lying about that, I guess that's why he's on board but now I have a mini wife/mini mom going on little miss 23 who's got some sort of disability because her maturity has always been behind fro, what I gather....and if it's not me she's clashing with it's her 17YO sister. I'm just done being disrespected by her with the eye rolling and the whatevers I want to snatch her up and scream in her face that this is MY home I wear the d cups around here and if she dont shut her face she's gonna a get slapped with her training bra. I have continually tried and tried with her even when on her first day of driving ever she smashed my damn car which I now have to pay for because it's in my exes name.....I turned that around and got her back behind the wheel. The thanks I get is her arguing with, e about me giving away a mattress that's in my basement that belonged to the sister she claims to hate anyway which since I work in rent to own I bought to get the girl by, but she felt that somehow she has the right to sell it or tell me what to do with it? None of them need this bed nor do they need the new bed that instead of her helping us with the Bill's we said nothing and allowed her to buy herself (she's never kept a job this long but going on a year as a part ti,e cashier at big lots) and I'm expected to just allow her to sell it so she can waste even more money buying the sa,e bed for her sister when the mattress isn't worth but maybe $50 and it's being given to a gal who's son needs it. I just dont get what I did wrong here that it's ok for her to talk to me like this and act like this idgaf what her mood disorder is or whatever it's disrespect, and further this is MY HOME she was told that she always has a roo, at daddy's BY ME. Not him. I have done everything for this girl and what's worse he sees that too but yet I'm somehow wrong for asking for her to not roll her eyes at ,e and whatever me and tell me what to do with my belongings in my house?!?!?!?! So tomorrow when he gets home from being gome for 7 days for the 3rd week in a row (not normal truck issues have happened) I feel bad even saying anything to him but this mini wife crap and mini mom crap needs to stop. She also does the sam,e crap to the sister she's buying this bed for. Like this all needs to stop it's time for her to be put in her place or move out on her own or back in with auntie and uncle user lazy pants. My own boys cannot even see, to come for a night without her complaining about petty crap. Ughhhhh ok rant over I'm go na try n sleep 

 

Findthemiddle's picture

Where is your partner - why isn't he dealing with his kids?  Let your husband handle his daughters- arguing with them is a waste of time and bad for your mental health.   If your partner cannot/ will not handle his kids - you have to decide how you want to live your life.

MissTexas's picture

will respond when there isn't a wall of words.

This gave me a headache trying to get from the beginning to the end. Also, please proofread as you type. At times it seems you were typing in Morse Code.

It sounds like your  DH has the typical guilty daddy syndrome. SD's BM doesn't sound like a prize, as you refer to her as an "egg donor." I'm sure that weighs heavily on his mind. If he's been trucking for many years, he was likely absent quite a bit.

I could be wrong, but it feels like he is not wanting to rock the boat with any of them, particularly SD-23.

The long and short of it is, if he refuses to, or avoids stepping up to the plate and disciplining HIS ("adult") KIDS properly this will simply not work. To be clear, any requests for change must come THROUGH HIM. HE IS THE PARENT, not you. She has already proven you are nothing to her, and trying to facilitate change in her behavior is moot. 

If your DH will not address her issues and require imporovements in her attitude or behavior, then this is a no win situation for you.

Best of luck!