Sometimes it hurts to love someone. Loving someone so much that you put your own happiness in the background is a very dangerous thing. Even more dangerous is doing it for someone that is not committed to you, to a future, to the music you thought you both shared. At some point and time we all live on woulda, coulda, shouldas...........but there comes a time in your life that you have to let the past go. A great friend of mine once said that "love is too good to be sad, you have to make your life open for love." You can not do that if you are holding onto a love that doesn't want to be held. My friend also said "we first must fly then be lovingly captured." Love can not be captured you if you are not available and open to it. You can not be available or open to it if you are being weighed down by the shoulda, woulda, couldas. "She could be mine one day", "He should settle down and be with JUST me",...........We HAVE to value ourselves more. We HAVE to let go of that mentality that it is ok to be the "part time" love. We HAVE to move on. We HAVE to make our lives open for love. We HAVE to learn that sometimes it just really means we HAVE to make our lives open to love OURSELVES.....love ourselves enough to say a little isn't good enough, love ourselves enough to say I won't deal with the lies, love ourselves enough to say sharing them with someone else is not how it is SUPPOSED to be, love ourselves enough to want more, to ask for more, to demand more, or to walk away. You have to remember to never lose yourself in love.....to depend on that other person for your mood.........IF that person isn't also lost in you. Love......what I deem as music.....can feed your soul.....if it is mutually shared, if you are BOTH on the same rhythm......otherwise music is just a bunch of "notes".