I am disappointed with my husband. We are getting married in church (we already had a civil marriage last year) next month. And we wont have a honeymoon. I told him i am disappointed. I have time off of work and he too. We are getting married in my home country but hed like to hurry back to denmark where his stepdaughter is and stay there for two days. Then ill follow him in denmark and we both continue on to our home here. I told him im disappointed and he started to shout at me saying i complain too much and that im upset jist because i cant have a honeymoon.
Well we didnt have a honeymoon after our civil wedding either. He gave me a small silver necklace that say "best friend" instead of i love you he said meant to buy the one that say i love you. It was soo cheap and thought like he couldve done better but i wore it proudly on my bday. On christmas day i didnt get a gift from him. But on his kids' birthdays and last christmas he showers them with gifts and last christmas it was even my money that was spent on gifts for them cos he didnt have money (3 kids, stepdaughter, parents, brother, sister and sister's two kids)
I hate him sometimes because i feel like im not allowed to feel disappointed or hurt or express how i feel. I work hard and feel like im not getting anything in return. I try to give as much as i can. It wont feel so bad for me though if i cant see how different he is with the kids and with me. I feel like he takrs me for granted.
I feel like sometimes if i was with a man who doesnt have children, Id get all the attention i need from him. I would not get jealous in terms of gifts (it sounds shallow but really who wouldnt be disappointed or hurt even after last christmas). I would have more in terms of finance as we will only have us both to take care of financially and our children.
I dont think hre understands me . I tell him that it was soo difficult for me to come here in this countrt with no friends and family to contact..there is still this awkwardness between me and his family. I cant speak the language here but im learning. He has kids every other weekend. His ex hates me. The weather is cold and depressing. I work hard and cant even enjpy my salaries because i help him with his the expenses..and his money goes to alimony and his debts and our expenses too. He is the only one i can vent out on and tells me not to vent out on him as he cant take it. He even sugested i call red cross and i did just so someone could listen to me! And now i found this site. I am stil praying and hoping that our marriage will last long. But i told him i wont settle for less. So if i want to plan to travel somewhere, whether he can come with me or not id still go. I feel like ive postponed so many plans for him. His many promises brfore we got married didnt come true.