It was our weekend with Dh's sons. Since there mother have them on a dead run every weekend we have been hanging close to home lately when we have them so they can relax & hang out. We took them to the history museum this weekend to see a baseball exhibit. The 6 year old really tested both of us. It's a barage of "watch where you are going, pay attention" the whole time. Then the best is these people pull up next to us & park so crappy DH can hardly get out & 6 yr old blurts out" what a bunch of wierdos" loud enough that the people heard. WE are lucky my new car was not keyed when we got back.

I had a headche for two days running & being pregnant I am far more easily irritated. That combined with the usually my mommy does it this way crap it just wears on me. The 6yr old kept advising me that if I wanted to make really good oatmeal I would get it at the store that his mommy goes to. On Sunday DH wasn't feeling well ( again...this is getting to be a regular occurance on weekends ) so we let the kids hang out & play PS2 downstairs. We had to tell 6 year old no less than 5 times to keep it down because we could here him yelling ( in this nasty voice which I tell him repeatedly not to use) over the TV show we were watching. Then they cleaned the birdcage & got bird poop all over my carpet & left it. DH got mad at me becasue I didn't want them to vacuum it up becasue I wanted it done right.

So now it's time for them to go home & I offer to start truck using the remote start & hit t he alarm instead. They thought it was too funny & 6 year old says " She doesn't even know how to start t he truck" DH chewed them out for that telling them it was rude, b ut at this point between taking care of them ironing DH's clothes for the entire week with a headach & my pregnancy hormones going nuts, I had it. I told him that I didn't want to hear the apologies & went & sat down. Then he wanted me to go into the kitchen to say goodbye to them. I said good bye from where I was sitting...he blew a gasket because the kids feelings were hurt. He dropped them off & then came home & agrued some more. He even told me that if I ever made him choose between the boys & me that I would not like the answer. I told him what kind of person did he think I was, I would not make him choose... trust me I would leave on my own if things ever got that bad. I've been divorced & I am not afraid of it. However this time I will have a child involved. If he thinks ex is a bitch, if we got to that point she would seem agreeable.

We talked it out & made up, however he still thinks I was too hard on the kids.

He is stressed because of new job, this week he has to travel & will get home too late to see them for the most part...wonder who gets to take care of them & deal with ex then, oh yah me. Luckily their mother stayed home because of holiday today & I asked him to have them stay in ycare tomorrow night & have their mom pick up after work there so I can go to the chiropracter & get an adjustment...or at least take a freakin lunch break w/o rushing home to take care of them.

I love them & they are good kids, it's just DH forgets I never had kids & I am 38. When I get a bad headach I need some quiet and I don't think I should have to ask for it more than 5 times. I also feel that since I am not the parent ( and am reminded of it that I should not have to be responsible for more than him)

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest!