I am not sure if I am just mad at the SS21 and I am now looking for shit to be mad about or if I am trying to find an excuse to just be pissed off all the time so I can walk out of here....

I always thought that I was rather intelligent, so how come I can not communicate with my fiance and get this all out in the open, once and for all?....It's really not so much about the SSs then it is about the way their dad treats me, and how he re-directs his anger about them towards me....

Because in all reality I know dad/he is just as fed up as I am about SS21 (who is systematically avoiding his dad by not being here when he knows dad is home, and dad does not pick up the phone call him and tell him to be here so that effing talk can be had so we can effing throw him out...arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh)

I hate being a effing whiner...either I do something or let it be!

JUST NEEDED TO VENT A LITTLE!