So I'm leaving Wednesday for my ds' hs graduation; was having a boatload of anxiety over having to deal with my parents http://www.steptalk.org/node/217765 (if' you're interested in a little of the backstory on that).

After getting some great advice and tips here, talking with dh and my bff, I do feel better about the trip. It's not about my parents and its certainly not about how I feel about my parents, it's about celebrating my son's graduation from high school and nothing more. I've got more solid plans than I did last week and that part alone has helped tremendously.

If my mother wants to sit be judgmental and have a fake smile on her face with my ex and his wife, that's her business, not mine. If my parents can't afford A,B and C, as usual, not my problem. And if she wants to cry about it to me, she can kick rocks because her lack of financial planning isn't my issue either. If she wants to ask dumb questions, she'll have to ask someone else because I'll be too busy hanging out with my kid. I know all this intellectually, it's just kinda hard to separate it from how I feel about it sometimes, so frustrating.

Also, even though I'm the LUCKIEST mom in the world because ds is, seriously, a good kid, talented, has a plan and is absolutely not looking for money or even the smallest gift from my parents, it annoys me that they have NOTHING to give him. Not. A. Thing. They never have. I just wanted to vent that here and get it out of my system so I can move on and focus on seeing my kiddo do his thing.

Anyhow, thanks again for reading and letting me vent!