Week 3: Losing and Fighting for ME!
It's the third week of weighing in and I'm amazed how clear my thinking is when I'm not numbing my feelings.
I weighed in tonight and lost 5.1 pounds this week. So now I've lost 19.1 pounds and I've worked hard for it. I've been more aware that all the medical issues that could become worse if I didn't lose weight and realizing nothing is going to jeopardize my goal no matter what.
DH is on a business trip and called tonight. I basically told him that I am no longer going to be the one working towards having a relationship with his kids. If BM doesn't want me to be in the skids lives and he isn't doing anything to change it, then the skids will feel that DH approves it. And if that is OK with DH, then it's OK with me. No more struggling emotionally for me. I told him that I will no longer be jeopardizing my health in hopes that I will be accepted by his kids.
DH did say he never viewed it that way before and said he would work on it, but I am not holding my breath because I've heard that before with other issues. All I know is that I have to keep focused on my goal for my health and my children.
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Good for you!!!!! Fantastic
Good for you!!!!! Fantastic all the way around!!!
Great job on the 19# weight
Great job on the 19# weight loss! I wish I could do it, but I keep popping chocolates as sedatives around SD13.....
That's what I was doing to
That's what I was doing to cope with my step situation and then all my health issues came on because of all the weight I gained. My steps are not worth my health.
I'm so happy for you. You're
I'm so happy for you. You're doing great and are an inspiration to me. I know my health is worse since things got worse with skids a few months ago. It really does take a toll on us.
Keep up the good work and keep posting your progress. We need good stories on here.
Thanks Sports Fan. I think
Thanks Sports Fan. I think because of all the health problems I was having because of my weight and gaining weight because of the emotions I was feeling about DH and skids, something clicked in me that my health and my children are more important than hoping things would change with them.