I hate being on the fence about continuing to live with SO and SS16. Sometimes I
Wish SO would just do something really unforgivable so that I could easily decide to leave.

It seems like the more I assert myself, the worse things get. And I'm not very assertive. I finally set some boundaries, like keeping the kid out of the bedroom. I've also started telling the kid (nicely) to get off the x box. I don't consult SO, I just tell him because I'm wanting to watch tv or work in the kitchen. I think this is what's really soured things between myself and SS. He always complies but I know he resents me for it. Possibly because his dad has backed me up, not sure.

I just can't handle the stress of another move. Not right now. Im tired of moving. It's too hot and I'm too tired all the time. My migraines are coming back more frequently, and that zaps even more energy from me.

I don't know if it's the heat, or if I'm not managing my depression and my perspective on things is out of wack, I just don't know. I do know that I'm tired of being outnumbered and I'm tired of living with two stubborn males who can't handle a woman telling them what to do.

SO, it would be easier if you would just be a complete a-hole 100% of the time. But you have your good moments too.