We have full custody of SS10. Mother is only allowed to visit with supervision (horrible human).

My problem is that SS10 is pretty disrespectful to me. He tries to get in between H and I. Tries?? He succeeds. Each night, I get about 10 minutes of H's time. If that.

When SS10 does something disrespectful, wrong, horrible... and I get onto him about it, I get yelled at by H in front of SS10. If SS10 asks for a trip to the store - I tell him not this week but the weekend - I get yelled at for making a decision without consulting H.

H makes decisions like purchasing a $170 toy at the drop of a hat w/o even asking and I get yelled at for being upset about it.

SS10 is manipulating H and H allows it. If the nanny tells H or I that SS10 did something wrong during the day - H blames the babysitter, because SS10 is only 10 years old and not capable of doing wrong. If SS10 is a bully to a friend - it is the friends fault; not SS10. He isn't capable of it.

SS10 shoots off dirty looks to me, rolls eyes and interrupts with I speak, lies about me, tells his dad that he hates me, that he doesn't like me, that he hates living with us because I am horrible. Psycholigist says that it is normal for a kid (boy) to hate the SM because they are there when the BM isn't. They take the anger out on the SM.

But, it still hurts everyday that I am thrown to the side by H and SS10. They have each other to love and I feel like I am all alone in my house.

I ask H to find a family member to keep the SS10 for a night so we can do something together and he never does.

I hate being the odd man out and treated unfairly. I hate being alone in a house that I am supposed to share with a family.

Being a Step is the worst thing that has happened to me, I think.

Thanks for the outlet. It hasn't helped yet, but I am keeping my fingers crossed!