Eff off to emergency c-sections. My best friends daughter will probably have one today, and although we are excited for the new grandbaby, it's still scary because the baby is small and the worry for the mother as well.

Eff off to cops who tailgate you at 530 in the morning (not knowing it's cop because it's dark and all you see are headlights) and thinking this is how it ends, on your way to work when some freak rear ends you then kills you. Jerk cop finally pulled around me and sped off.

Eff off to the holidays this year, I'm not normally a Grinch but there has been so much tragedy in and around my family lately that it feels like the holidays are to blame, even though I know they are not!

POS only has one meaning when used for a skid

This week I only have one eff-off, and it's to BM. This woman's sole purpose on earth must be to be a terrible human being!

I'm so grinchy this Christmas it's not even funny.  I've been so overburdened at work and home life that I have ZERO spirit of giving.  I hear the word 'donate' and 'charity' and it makes me twitchy.  I feel no warm/fuzzies over giving...I have zero desire to give to my family or cook.

First though- I blame my and dh's family partially.

1st- my brother/wife ALWAYS every year/every Holiday always celebrate the MAIN event/day with HER family-our celebration always has to be done the day before/day after/weekend after, etc..that was the case even when my dad was alive.  Even more so now- now it's just gone to 'come join us on main day' but damn I don't want to spend every holiday with her effin family.

So because ALL their effort goes into the main event w/her family day I end up (or my mom) w/the load of the main dishes and they show up w/ a side dish or desert.  I told my mom and was clear that I was NOT doing that or taking main head on any planning-that I would show up w/side dish and wine like they do and let THEM for once do the heavy lifting.  My mom walks on eggshells around them and never wants to BURDEN them but has no issue burdening me.  So SHE takes on the heavy lifting/cost so I said lets PLEASE make something easy...one Christmas eve it was pasta-loved it.  Well she agreed and now changed it to TURKEY- and wants ME to do the roasted potato mix or mashed potato and also carrotts/butternut/etc....that takes HOURS.  I was FURIOUS.  And guess what? Bro wife bringin a effin green bean casserole.  I let my mom have it last night on the phone.  Today I e-mailed them both and said NO I'm doing green beans and they can do the roast/potato time consuming dish.

Then my dh's family-ever since his dad died we have only had ONE Christmas together - most of the time my MIL can't bother to show up- his brother has now gone into hiding from the law (warrant out for divorce settlement issues).  My MIL doesn't do ANYTHING and slowly it became expected that now I have to do ALL dishes and SD/boyfriend show up at some point to eat/go and then a dish goes to MIL.  So everything falls on me. I told him NOT this year. I wanted to go to Cracker Barrel honestly low key/countryish- no cleaning before after..it's closed.

So...I'll do a normal meal like any other day and feed my sons and us...not doing anything for his family anymore. If DH wants to do it all, great....I'm done 'giving' - people take and take. I don't even have decorations up.

EFF off to myself for saying I would take the Gskids shopping today after work !  I should have done it weeks ago but something always got in the way, now it's down to the wire, it's raining and the only place to go is Walmart, this is soooooo gonna suck!

Major Blunder will need a Major drink when he finally gets home tonight !

EFF off FRIDAY because I have to WORK ON MONDAY.  Why?  No one will be here to provide services to!  I advised people to freaking bring a book or internet day-it.  Because I won't care. 

I have to work on Monday as well but will get out 2 hours early. On a good note , one of my vendors just sent over Champagne and Treats, New Years is wrapped up !