I KNOW I would love kids if they were my own. These kids are not mine. And I hate being around them. Something tells me SO told them that too... they seem a little scared of me lately. They whisper when I'm home. It's a little unnerving..... Now I'm scared to say anything to them in case I scare them more!! God knows I'm probably the reason they are both wetting the bed!!!

If I moved out tomorrow, I'd never have to deal with kids again!!! (other than my neices and nephews which is usually on my terms) When the skids are here that's all I can think about!! That and I'd obviously take all my stuff and furniture with me so they can see just how much nothing they'd have without me!!! SO wouldn't be able to afford the mortgage AND all the bills so either they'd move into a crap house so they could have internet and TV or they'd live here with no internet and TV!! That brings a smile to my face. Those 2 boys without TV?!?!?!?? For shame!!! What would they do with every waking hour of their day?!?!? Oh yeah, play video games!! I guess one TV and one game console are his.

On the other hand, I think of how much I could like this house if only I lived alone!! No kids coming every second weekend and taking up the second upstairs bedroom for their crap which has the door closed 12 days in two weeks just waiting for their return.... Sigh... it really would make a nice office.... I wouldn't need the cleaning lady that comes in just to clean their fingerprints off the fridge... pee off the bathroom floor and walls.....

I wish it was them that were invisible instead of how I felt every time they are here.

10 more years. Only 10 more years.