Last night was bingo at the VFW. FH my kids and I all went. My nerves had been on high and my anxiety has been getting the best of me lately.so at mid afternoon I had taken one of my xanax's.I'm not much of a drinker and havent had any mostly adult, time in a looooong time that i decided to indulge myself with a couple mixed drinks.That was a terrible move i felt complelty tipsy but still "ok". FH's sis was begining to annoy me by her constant nagging about my bs7 whining about losing every game(he was aggravating me too,but i guess i can overlook it a bit cause he's mine)I told her to stop bitching and in this mornings text she said she wasnt mad it was kind of funny but she didnt feel like having coffee hour with me today.lol oops well it gets better,I guess i told FH just how i feel and that maybe he might want to consider getting back with his sons mommy because the way he caters to him no one in their right mind will put up with for to long.I was tipsy and I shouldn't have done that with my children no excuses for that what so ever my kids have never even seen me with more that a small glass of wine at a wedding before I am so ashamed,and FH had done nothing but put me down and degrade my parentingfor this episode last night I am complelty mortified and dont even want to "talk about it" when he comes home in a bit.I fell as if I gave up everything besides my children when i mmoved here I have no friends,a part time job(where everone already has their niches, no family. I am a very social person and here all I have is my phone and computer.my children are young but they have sports classes and school neighbor kids. I am so dpressed and i am really thinking all iI want is to move back!!!! I told him how I felt and I was "intoxicated" loldamn one more thing to add to my list I made a fool of myself and that just had to be the one time i actually tell him how I feel lmao