Lately I really can't have anything much negative to say about Critch. It seems she has been taking her medication lately or something. So, I was nice and sent her a photo of one of the girls that I took. She also sent me an email last week saying some very nice things about how since she "can't" be there for her girls, if she had to choose someone to take her spot then I seem to be doing everything right. "THANKS, CRITCH!!"

She has been emailing the almost 7-year-old SD, and although I don't quite get some of the things... it's nice that she's finally taking a miniscule amount of time out of her life to let them know she cares. I believe in the phrase "Actions speak louder than words" and I hope my SDs will too... but that doesn't mean I want them to feel rejected or abandoned by their BM either.

It's tough to be in the spot I'm in, like... I really want to be there for my niece's first birthday. It just so happens that she was born a day after my SD, and she lives 5 hours away. So I asked SD if she would be sad if I missed her birthday, and she said, "VERY sad!" So of course I can't go. Now, if Critch hadn't been a crazy and left her children, it might not be as big of a deal as SHE would be "mommy" and I wouldn't matter as much to SD. I guess that is just something I'm going to have to accept. It IS the way things are. *sigh*

If only Critch would pay CS... I might not care as much. I just feel like she needs to take responsibility for her kids, or I should be able to adopt them.

/rant