In reference to my last blog......current update.......

situation...my fiance found out last week that he may have an 8 year old.........waiting for them to get a paternity test.........

in the midst of waiting for them to get a paternity tests, all hell has broken loose between my fiance and I. We are always arguing about this stupid situation, even when I say I am not going to say anything about it, I will just listen....even then we keep arguing. He asks me what I think and what i feel, I said to him I don't want to say it bc Im getting told I am wrong. Apparently, I am wrong for being angry about the situation, I need to be more supportive, (which that one i can agree with), and this doesn't affect me so don;t make it about myslef. O agree with not making it about myself bc it is so not, however, I have feelings to and apprehensions about how this can go down. My friends think I am wrong and I need to stand by him, but he is nit picking ....like yesterday when I started to say how I felt , I stopped. He kept encouraging me to say it so I said it flat out....If it were possible I really don't want them to be apart of my life. Even though I know, if the kid is his they will be. He says, well then I guess I will ignore them to make you happy......I lost it......like really? You asked me to say how I feel, against me really wanting to, to get told all of a sudden you would ignore them.....so later you can blame me. Even more you are insulting how I feel by trying to make me look stupid and immature. He is making it out that I am acting crazy and he didnt say anything or do anyhting wrong.

Truth be told, I feel like he is so mad at the other BM he is taking it out on me, and I am really tired of the crap. It's wasier to take it out on me, but walk on damn eggs shells for the b*tch who kept her mouth shut for 8 years, and is now like *SURPRISE*.....Like really go yell at her stupid behind.......

Neither of us are supporting eachother, and all he keeps saying to me is I am pushing him away, and stop pushing him away.....and all I say is I will never let you or anyone hurt me again. I have been trying for the past few days to be supportive, but we always end up in an argument. I'm so tired adn upset, I don;t even want to talk to him at all right now.

Can someone give me any advice? Help!