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Submitted by Need2Breathe on Tue, 03/29/2011 - 9:47pm

You know how they say that when you play a country song backwards, you get your truck back, your house back, your job back etc?

Well here is the benefit of reversing the mistake you made by partnering with a coward. You get your body back! Goodbye all the extra pounds that I gained while your permissive parenting left me with all anxiety and no energy. Thanks to the fact that I feel like I'm going to throw up all the time (and can't even eat 2 handfuls of a small $10 popcorn in the movie I took myself to so I don't have to feel like an intruder in my own house until you get the F out), I'm back down to 12O lbs, just like when I met you. And until you give me some space, I am going to prance around this house, correction: my house, in my skimpiest boy shorts, my laciest underthings, and I'm going to feel great and worthy and proud!

YOU CAN'T TOUCH THIS!!

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foxxystep's picture

Submitted by foxxystep on Wed, 03/30/2011 - 4:12am

LOL, needtobreath, I read your previous blog, and I am green with envy that you already have the guts that i am only now starting to muster up to leave Smile

I am waiting for my son to be born in May, and then my exit plan starts. For now, I have to be kind to my growing child, but leaving is not a matter of "if", its a matter of "when". My SO is very... erm... well unpredicatable when it comes to dealing with negative emotions, and while he's never been violent and out-of-control with me, I will not put it past him. So I need to be able to be strong to fight that fight of me leaving.

I smile when I think of the day my kids and i will have all the time in the world when we're at home to bond. Where I can raise my own STB born son to be a functional member of society, and not a social outcast like SS7 because he's mimicing his fathers socially deficient behaviour.

Way to go, and good luck!!!

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Submitted by skylarksms on Wed, 03/30/2011 - 7:57am

DITTO!

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Submitted by Need2Breathe on Wed, 03/30/2011 - 7:45pm

I am so sorry, foxxy. As miserable as I feel sometimes, and as trapped as I have felt, I can't even begin to imagine the agony and the strength it takes to be pregnant in this state. And the "shattering of the illusion" can only be catastrophic. You are carrying this man's child, which I'm sure you expected to be the fulfillment of a lifelong dream.

At least know that, with your son, you will always have a purpose that is larger than any SO/SD/BF/F**kstick. You will always have a reason to come home and smile, and no one can take that away from you.

Plan your exit and work on your new vision. Everyone needs an optimistic sense of the future to function. But that is what these a**holes steal from us. It's not just about finances - it's about safety and security and control of your destiny. Grab a Pottery Barn Kids catalog and start shopping for knockoffs. As your vision takes shape, you will find a greater sense of peace everyday.

Peace & Love to you.

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Submitted by mom23ms on Wed, 03/30/2011 - 9:27am

HA! I lost 9 pounds so far and feel great. I'm actually getting out and walking. It's a start at least.

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Submitted by Need2Breathe on Wed, 03/30/2011 - 7:49pm

GO! BE! MOVE! Regain your sense of self. It is out strongest asset.

Hugs to you.

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Submitted by Auteur on Wed, 03/30/2011 - 9:49am

Sounds great! I am now getting back in shape b/c I need to do it for myself. GG suddenly went on a health kick (probably to impress the Behemoth and his three crotch droppings)

Plus the upside is my walking program after work is a whole hour a day that I don't have to deal with his BPD!

This morning I started up my DVRed CAthe upper body pyramid (only got halfway thru yesterday due to lack of time) right while he was there; basically clueing him to get the hell to work so he can make more money for the Behemoth.