CAN ANYBODY PLEASE HELP ME SNAP OUT OF HOW I AM FEELING??!!

THINGS STARTED WITY MY FIANCE BACK LAST YEAR HE WAS MY NEW BOSS, INCREDIBLY GOODLOOKIN AND CHARMING. PROMBLEM!! HE WAS MARRIED! AND HAD A DAUGHTER! BUT... HE WAS VERY UNHAPPY IN HIS MARRIGE WHICH HE WASNT SHY TO ADMIT WHEN WE FIRST MET AND SAID HE HAD LEFT MANY TIMES BEFORE BUT MISSED HIS DAUGHTER. I WAS ALSO IN A RELATIONSHIP AT THE TIME THAT I WAS QUITE UNHAPPY IN TOO THAT I ALSO WASNT SCARED OF ADMITTING. HE WAS VERY PROFESIONAL. NEITHER OF US MADE A PASS AT EACHOTHER AS DIDNT WANT TO OVER STEP THE MARK BECAUSE HE WAS MARRIED AND MY BOSS. WE GOT 2 KNOW EACHOTHER VERY WELL, WE COULD BOTH HONESLTY SAY WE BECAME GOOD FRIENDS. HE CONFIDED IN ME ABOUT A LOT OF STUFF WHEN IT CAME TO HIS WIFE THAT HE HAD CHEATED IN THE PAST BUT HAD TOLD HER ABOUT IT AND THE GUIKT KILLED HIM. HE TOLD ME THEN THAT HE NEVER WANTED TO MARRY HER AS WE WAS SELFISH AND ONLY PURPOSED BEACUSE HE FELT IT WAS ''THE RIGHT THING TO DO'' NEXT. THEN AFTER BEING FORCED INTO A QUICK A MARRIGE THAT SPIRALS OUT OF CONTROL THEY GOT PREGNANT AS THEY THOUGHT IT WAS MAKE THEIR RELATIONSHIP WORK BUT IT DIDNT AND HE STAYED THERE FOR ANOTHER 7 YEARS. I BELIEVE WHAT HE IS SAYING AS HIS FRIENDS AND OUR OTHER WORK COLLEGUES HAVE TOLD ME THAT HE WAS VERY UNHAPPY. ANYWAY...JUST BEFORE XMAS ME AND HIM STARTED GETTING CLOSER AND HE KISSED ME THE GULIT KILLED BECAUSE OF HIS WIFE AND MY CURRENT BOYFRIEND BUT I KNEW I WAS FALLING FOR HIM, HE SAID IT WOULDNT HAPPEN AGAIN BUT ON BOXING DAY HE TURNED UP IN A WROK COLLEGUES PARTY WHERE WE OUT LATER AND WE GOT ON SO WELL AGAIN DANCED HAD A REALLY GOOD TIME BUT MY CURRNET BOYFIREND TURNED UP AND HE DIDNT LIKE IT. AFTER XMAS RETURNING TO WORK THE FIST DAY BACK WE SLEPT TOGETHER AND IT KILLED ME I BROKE UP WITH MY BOYFRIEND AS IT WAS TO MUCH BEING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE. HE TRIED TO LEAVE HIS WIFE AND HIS DAUGHTER WENT CRAZY AND MADE HIM GULITY HE STAYED SO WE BROKE IT OFF. TWO WEEKS LATER HE LEFT HER ''MOVED TO HIS MOTHER'' BUT ACTUALLY MOVED IN WITH ME. 10 MONTHS LATER HERE WE ARE ENGAGED HE DIVORCED LEGALLY AND WE HAVING A BABY. I LOVE HIS DAUGHTER VERY MUCH , BUT I JUST CANT DEAL WUTH HIS PAST I THINK ITS BECAUSE IT IS SO FRESH. EVERYTIME HE HAS TO GO THERE TO PICK ABIGAIL UP , OR IF HIS EX PHONES HIS MOBILE EVEN DOWN TO THE WAY HER NAME IS WRITTEN IN HIS PHONE GETS TO ME, I HATE THA FACT HE WAS MARRIED TO HER FIRST , THAT ABIGAIL IS HIS FIRST WITH HER. AND THE FACT THAT HE STILL HAS MAIL GOING THERE AND THERES A LOT OF THINGS OF HIS STILL IN THAT HOUSE THAT I HAVE BEGGED HIM TO GET OUT OF THERE BUT HE TO BUSY HE SAIS, HE STILL OWNES THAT HOUSE WHICH HE PROB WILL FOR A LONG TIME. I KNOW HE LOVES ME! AND I KNOW HE WASNT HAPPY THERE. BUT HE DOESNT REALISE WHAT HE DOES TO ME BY STILL KEEPING THAT STUFF THERE I KNOW HE LIVE DTHERE 8 YEARS BUT IF HE MOVED OUT AND WE GOT UTR OWN HOUSE TOGETHER AND HE DIVORCED WHY IS HIS STUFF STILL THERE GET THEM OUT! HIS FMAILY ARE REALLY NICE ON OUR ENGAGEMENT PARTY THEY WERE GRAET HIS BROTHERS NEVER REALLY LIKE HER ANYWAY BUT SEEMED TO LIKE ME. HIS MOTHER TRIES TO MAKE AN EFFORT WITH ME BUT HIS EX WILL ALWAYS BE NUMBER ONE I THINK. ABIGAIL HAS TAKEN TO THE DIVORCE REALLY WELL AND I HAVE ADAPTED TO HER BEING AROUND AS IT WAS HARD AT FIRST SHARING KEN, BUT IM CRAZY ABOUT HER. BUT HIS MOTHER ISNT REALLY BOTHERD ABOUT HER NEW GRANDAUGHTER WHO WILL BE HERE SOON ALL SHE CARED ABOUT IS ABIGAIL AND HER MOTHER BECAUSE THEY HAVENT GOT KEN ANYMORE. ABIGAIL HAS GOT KEN! BUT HER MOTHER IS NOT HAVING HIMBACK AND IM SICK OF PEOPLE FEELING SORRY FOR HER HE DIDNT LEAVE HER FOR ME , HE TRIED LEAVING HER BEFORE!! I WASNT THERE THEN! THEY ARE DIVORCED NOW AND RATHER THAN PEOPLE BEING HAPPY FOR ME AND KEN THAT WE HAVING A NEW BABY, ABIGAIL IS EXTATIC SHE HAVING A SISTER ITS STILL PITTY ON JOANNE! AND MY NEW DAUGHTER IS AT BACK OF THE SHELF AND SHE NOT EVEN HERE YET. HOW CAN I TELL MY FIANCE THIS? I HAVE BUT HE JUST SAID HIS EX WIFE BEEN IN HIS LIFE A LONG TIME SO HIS MOTHER CANT STOP TALKING TO HER COS OF ABIGAIL. IM NOT ASKING HER TOO!!! IM JUST ASKIN PEOPLE TO ACKNOWLEDGE THAT WE ARE HAVING A BABY NOW ABIGAIL ISNT NUMBER ONE IN HIS LIFE HE HAS TWO! ABIGAIL HAS NOT LOST HER FATHER HE IS NOT DEAD! HE JUST DOESNT LIVE THERE ANYMORE WHICH SHE HAS ADDAPTED TOO! WHY CANT HIS MOTHER OR HIS EX WIFE! HE HAS TWO CHILDREN NOW NOT ONE ! HE IS AN AWSOME FATHER AND I KNOW HE WILL LOVE SOFIA BUT I HOPE HE DOESNT FEEL LIKE HE HAS TO TREAT ONE DIFFERENT TO OTHER COS ONE GETS HIM MORE THEY SHOILD BE TRAETED EQUALLY I THINK BECAUSE I PLAN TO HAVE MORE WITH HIM. SOMEBODY HELP ME? AND TELL ME MY JEALOUSY S NORMAL. PLEASE BECAUSE IM GONNA END UP RESENTING HIM AND PUSHIN HIM AWAY!