Okay so I'm kidding about that but BM makes me so crazy sometimes that I revert to middle school thinking when a crazy goth chick got in my face and I woke up with her on the floor and her hair in my hands. Normally her psycho antics make me roll my eyes but when you start talking sh@t about BD 6 weeks I will get crazy. This morning started off fine enough. We have skids EOWE and 5 weeks in the summer from which she is CO'd to do the 2 hour drive to pick them up. She has been asking for FH to take them to her as the drive is too hard on her other 2 kids she spawned while still married to FH (not his spawn). She already failed to get them 2 weeks ago, but whatever. So FH said that his work schedule has changed and she needs to get them. Of course after a few lies as to why she can't the deragatory comments start. Normally we take the high road when she starts (EX: she yells to the kids when FH picks them up to have fun with as**ole FH (she has the kids call their Dad by his first name - they call him Dad at our house) etc) but today I LOST it! She starts in on calling FH names, then decides that doesn't quite cut it so she starts in on me. Loves to tell me how great the FH thought the sex was with BM, how much fun they had making the skids..:barf: Mind you she does nothing but collect CS and demand more money at each chance. So she starts going on about how we are good for nothing (except CS LOL) and have too many mouths to feed, whatever. She knows nothing about us but it all stems from jealousy. She has been trying to break us up since we got together. Anyway (sorry my mind is all over the place) while I was prego with BD 6 weeks she has serious health issues called IUGR (intrauterine growth restriction) and I was ordered on a high protein diet with strict bed rest. So after calling him names and trying in on me she said the one thing to make me see red.

BM: How is your handicapped child anyway?

OMG that was it. (BTW baby is perfect and grew fine but the cord had been "kinked" during pregnancy and with prayer and determination - she grew to a healthy weight). So I said -

Mumzy79: Better than the child you threw away like garbage (she has had 5 kids by age 23 and gave one of them up. My oldest child is adopted and I think it is wonderful selfless thing, but I admit I lost my cool and said the most hurtful thing I could). For the last 2 years she has said everything imaginable and when we could take the skids on her weekend she said that she doesnt care if our baby dies, so at this point I couldnt bite my tongue any longer. I feel like crap because EH and FH have a pretty good relationship and I want that for all but she has made it very clear that will never happen. I am sick of her trying to control everything simply because she is BM, I am sick her PAS tactics, mostly I am sick of her never doing what is in the best interest of the skids. She threatens court ever other week, threatens to go back to court based on my income (can she do that?) threatens to keep the kids from us, everything! Will the insanity ever end? Should I just stay out of it. FH asks me because frankly schedule changes affect me. So I am usually in the middle of it.

UGH! Okay vent over. I feel like crap for saying it even though she said terrible things too. Oh well, she gets under my skin....