Today is sad day but christmas will be hard this year. i moved to arizona with my soon to be 3rd time  marriage husband (yes the same man) I am a agent here now.. moving away from the girls was hard but the promise of travel to see them made it easier. i never questioned this due to the fact my husband works in idaho and travels weekly and im a friends fly free. well thats not the case he goes alone. he even books on another airlines so i dont go. at least thats what i feel. this christmas he did not invite me to his work party. the first time. no he is not seeing anyone there. to be honest i believe he doesnt like the fact i was catching him at those happy endings. thats a whole other story.. well i am at the point to where i cant take this any longer... what do i say to a man who has now made a choice without me to fly to see his step childern leaving me alone on christmas.. i mean alone he is my only friend i have no family just my doberman. im so sad i cant talk or breathe. he is staying in florida where his children are visiting there mother on college break. im thinkng the worst that he is spending it together with her with no care for me. im sad i miss my kids and he ont take me with him. why