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Submitted by truebloodfreak on Mon, 09/26/2011 - 3:09pm

There are things I want that I know I will never have because of who I'm with and my situation. I will never have money to save or spend. I will never get a break from SSs ever.not even for a day. I will never have privacy or alone time. I'm tired of being in a relationship that I feel is bringing me down. I'm always stressed and.just tired of all the BS I deal with because I live with my skids full time no breaks.or help.from BM. If I didn't have a baby with my SO I would leave in a heartbeat but we have a 13 no.the old together. I don't k.ow what to do. I feel like my life is wasting away. I pray everyday that things get better but I'm tired.of.being unhappy and stressed. I work all day and come home wanting to spend time with my son while.avoiding skids as.much as I can. Please tell me others feel like this sometimes

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Submitted by giveitago on Mon, 09/26/2011 - 4:06pm

Fortunately I love my SKids, they were abandoned to us almost immediately we were together, getting to know each other involved the kids every school holiday and every weekend. BM just saw a way to get rid of the kids so she could do what she liked. A year later we got full custody and it was pretty much full time SKids. We got no CS from BM iether, keep your money b1t@h! We really did not want to have to thank her for anything, the smallest favor has kickbacks with her, she dines out on stories about how she 'does favors' for people! Do the world a favor and vanish?

I think maybe you are a little down, please be careful of becoming depressed because that will really put the cat among the pigeons! Are you getting enough sleep? Nutrition? Hydration? Please take care of YOU! Never mind what the rest are doing, look after your own self and get your strength and willpower back, truebloodfreak, PLEASE!

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Submitted by truebloodfreak on Mon, 09/26/2011 - 4:24pm

Thanx to all for your comments. I LOVE this site and don't know what I would do without it. We get no CS support from BM if you've read my blogs she is a dead beat who.does.nothing. there is also nothing done as far as court/legal issues. Well my SS are 14 and 9. Both failing in school so my hopes of having them.gone at 18 is not really realistic. The 14 year old is in 7th grade. So a while before he graduates HS. As far 9 year old=too much work,way too needy and annoying liar. I don't k.ow if I can wait till they are older and.moved out. I honestly don't see how our relationship can work with so many problems. I'm afraid that if I stay I'm going to turn into a mean bitter person who resents things. I love being a mom hate being a.step-mom. thankfully my parentS are.very supportive and helpful. with me . My mom has offered to help get me my own. place so I don't have to keep going back and. forth between my parents house whenever.me and SO. fight. ..........how much is too much before u just get up and walk away. ? I love SO but so tired of.stress/unhappy

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Submitted by sonja on Mon, 09/26/2011 - 5:29pm

Know the feeling with my SD only being here EOW. And Ive even asked myself how that can cause so much stress when truly shes never here! I dont understand it sometimes, but it takes time to recover after every time she leaves and FDH is always dealing with BM as well.

Then where I have to pick up so much slack financially at our house, I seem to support us, while FDH supports them. So its like shes here full time. Money is always tight, and I wish I had listened when people warned me to not get into a relationship like this. Our BS is 8 months, and I know if I bail out, Im adding my son to the cycle.