I have come to the realization that I am a daughter of a Narcissistic Mother.....it is hurtful to admit and I feel guilt ridden for even typing that statement on the computer screen but I have no choice but to admit to the truth.
The last 48 hours have been pretty rough, in actuality the last 2 years have been pretty shitty that sometimes I am amazed I am not shooting up heroin. SO's children are PAS'd, BM wanted an increase in CS but was denied in 2014- she had even tried to get my income included and I was forced even though we are not married to provide my income statement, school statement etc.., ex landlord is suing us unlawfully for items that went missing etc; My Mother hates SO so much that even though I am 7 months pregnant, when I go to visit I wear baggy clothes so my stomach doesnt show and pretend that the baby growing inside of me doesnt exist...its quite a fucked up way to visit someone, mainly your mother. No one in my family asks about the baby or how the pregnancy is going instead i get disheartening statements such as, "you think your life is tough now, wait until the baby comes." My brothers GF recently broke up with him and she tells me, "I'm next".

So anyways in the last 48 hours, my daughters teacher escalated my daughters lateness to the principal where I received a call as they are concerned that my daughter is late(rightly so), I am late sometimes but usually by less than 5 minutes and she has had 29 lates, but out of those 29 I would say 19 of them- she didnt need a late slip and I just found this out now. Things get a little heated when the principal tells me that she is usually late by 30-45 minutes according to the teacher. This teacher interrogates the fuck out of my daughter and my duaghter told them that apparently her uncle(my brother)" sleeps with her in the bed"-her uncle doesnt even live with us and that they are going to report this to the Childrens Aid Society. I called and reported the incident to the CAS myself as this is ridiculous. I had explained to the teacher earlier that I have a high risk pregnancy, I suffer with Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction, commonly known as Pelvic Girdle Pain and am immobile on some days which contributes to my daughter being late and I also take blood thinners, for a blood clotting disorder. The school has no sympathy whatsoever-I know she needs to be on time, I get it, I feel guilty as hell, but somedays it just isnt going to happen, as the pregnancy progresses my mobility will become worse. I have a Drs note saying I shouldnt be working. The shcool said she is behind in her reading for English,( I have enrolled her in French Immersion) because she is late somedays by 5 minutes she isnt up to the level she should be, even though the announcements dont come on yet- but apparently she is behind and I have been working with her to improve this. To date, the principal nor the teacher have yet to come up with a remedy or a remedial plan to help her improve her reading.

Unfortunately, I have to tell my parents about the CAS incident as my brother is going to have to speak to an aid worker. My Dad spoke with the Principal today and the school had over sensationalized things to him that were untrue, so again- I look like the abusive parent. I speak to my mother as a victim of a narcissist I should have known better, but stupid me- needing validation that I am not a bad parent, my validation is met with, "you have to get up earlier, when your a parent you dont get anytime for yourself its all about your kids, whats going on in the home, it seems like there is abuse, something isnt right etc." All these negative comments, when maybe in reality you should have faith and support your child, but have sided on the schools side, which is usually anyside but my own.

My mother has insinuated I am a bad parent and that I am going to leave an imprint on my daughter and that my daughter is going to be fucked up because I didnt get her to school on time somedays- which are my fault admittedly, but I have been in a lot of pain and am pretty immobile sometimes and have to take my time to get ready. I have no help other than from SO. My mother told me that when the baby comes my daughter will have to walk a 1/4 of a mile to the bus stop by herself because I wont wait for her(even though she is 6 years old) makes no sense since-where we live there is no bus service so we do all the picking up and driving.

She devastated me very badly today, has never been supportive of me when I was a single parent, ironically she says she loves my duaghter and wants to take her away from me but yet, when she criticizes me- she looks at my duaghter like an impediment on my life, a mistake. She has no interest in knowing my second child anyway. So I have blocked my families numbers from my phone and am done with them...they have no idea the things I have been thru the last 2 years, 2 lawsuits, attempted suicide of SOs daughter,a crazy bm, schools bullying parents etc.
I would really like them to go thru the things i have and still stand with their head held high, I firmly believe in the statement do not judge someone until you've walked into their shoes.

If you are suffering from a narcissistic parent, read this, you are not insane or bad as you believe:

http://www.lightshouse.org/all-about-narcissists.html#axzz3P3FqUPw6