Yes we went to relate years ago and recently I have been going for counseling. I was sat their thinking why is it ME thats in counseling why isnt she or him!Why am I the one looking for ways to cope with this and try to change myself when its not me thats got a problem.

My children are 24 and 22 and both have seen whats happened and altho they do love him they also fully support me and want to see my happy without this constant struggle. I genuinely think it could make you ill the inner turmoil its caused and they have seen that. My children are amazing.

I have a hard journey ahead because I am full of resentment because we could have had a lovely life together. There comes a point where you cant have that level of nastiness aimed at you no matter how much you love them The fact he didn't step in when she banned me from the island she was getting married on gave me an insight into how he will deal with her now she is going to be a mum to his first grandchild. She will use that as a weapon I'm sure and I had to face that he wasn't emotionally equipped to cope with it. Even if she had said in a nice way that she didn't feel comfortable me being on the island and asked for understanding i would have accepted it but the vile nasty way she did it shocked even me and for him not to turn around and say so left me full of resentment that ive not been able to shake off.I feel so sad for him hes in bits but i do think wow did you really not see this coming!

Hes at home. I guess that sounds terrible. Im actually not of the opinion that a woman has the right to the family house child etc if I want to leave I leave but I promise my son is fine. All my children are well rounded happy loving individuals and I am very honest with them. Our house in France has a heated swimming pol, music room, games room bla bla and im in a rented cottage without TV, you really think he would be happier here? But the lovely thing is he and my husband are amazingly close hes 13 but a young 13 and is adorable and very close to his dad. I had him 9 weeks early he was only 3 lbs due to eclampsia, lost my eyes sight, kidney failure it was awful and didnt see him for 5 days as he and I were both in intensive care (different ones) and genuinely nearly died and it was a difficult time and I admit my husband took over and bonded far quicker than i did. My first thought was for my own older two children who nearly lost their mother. Ive seen him ever day and he knows just where i am and that he has both his parents. Thats the difficult thing my husband is THE most amazing father to him hes sort of tried to make up for all the mistakes ie working to much, lack of parental interest he made with his daughters and my son is a lucky boy as he really does have the best dad ever. I dont hate my husband i wish i did this would be alot easier. I have seen the pain and upset hes been through with his daughters and Im so happy for him he has a lovely son. My friends and family probably think like you that Im being too kind and should fight for him but I have no need. My husband is a kind gentle man but unfortunately a little to kind and a little to soft and doesn't like to upset anybody hence the situation I am in now.

Yes I must admit I had a little wobble and thought OMG if he meets somebody my son will have a step mum!But my other children's father and I have always had a good relationship. Im not a particularly fiery character and cant hold grudges very long im a bit soft really and always try to make amends. My husband is lovely and he does love me and I trust him to look after me as he really appreciates that Ive not tried to take my son. Re the SD its not really about her in some ways its about being with somebody that allows you to be treated badly its just eeked away at my love and respect for him. I likened it to those building blocks toddlers have, you keep building a tower but you know they're going to knock it down and eventually you cant be bothered to rebuild it and thats how Ive been feeling for months. I lost something the minute he didn't stick up for me and say about the wedding. He wanted to sit on the fence not making a decision and all the time i was waiting for him to make the right one which obv i felt was to say thats unacceptable. Seriously if she had done the conversation asking for understanding for her feelings or even her mum I genuinely would have accepted it. But it was the nastyness and way she did it and I just thought OMG shes enjoying this! And now shes having a baby she will enjoy watching me sidelined and kept out and I know other people can obviously cope with that but I just cant.