This is the fist time coming to this site. But, I found that there are a lot of other people experiencing the same thing I am as far as being a step child. I get upset with myself for the way I feel and how I am but at the same time I can't help the way I really feel.

Everyday I think about what an idiot I am for getting into this marriage. But, on the other hand I really do love my husband. I tell him that ... I love him. Everyone thinks that because I love him I should just naturally accept the child he had with the queen. That's what I call his son's mother.

I have two children of my own of which I have raised on my own ... after the father and husband of 10 years decided to abandon us to live the life he REALLY wanted. To make a long story short is didn't involve us. He got married and moved out of the country ... he doesn't help financially but at least he doesn't bother us either.

When I met my husband he lived with his mother. Because she was older and most of his paycheck was going to child support. The BM really suckered him and took him for more than he really had to pay. But, he always felt like he needed to provide support to his child. Even through she was a real "B" to him and didn't let him see his son. I have to say it's not all her fault ... she found out she was pregnant after my now husband went to prison. He was there for about 5 or six years of his sons life. So that's his fault. From what I understand he left her a lot of money for him which she blew through ... which I really don't care about.

When he got out ... he tells me she made him feel unwanted ... so he left. He paid his child support and she found a new man. He was still with her while she was with this other man. Anyway their son is 11 now. He came to live with him in Dec. 2011 after being taken away from the mother by CPS for drunk driving and other problems. My husband had to go through a lot with CPS because the son told them he was afraid his dad was going to kill him. He is a real little creap too. Despite everything my husband still fell for the kid and asked me if he could just keep him until the mother got out of prison.

I agreed like the fool that I am. We were married in Dec 2011 - one year later with the understanding that he was going to give the kid back to his mother. Well come to find out after getting married and supporting him and his son. He wants to keep the kid. I feel so betrayed and disrespected.

Reason for the way I feel is my husband is an ex-felon. Even though his crimes happened in his younger years and he served his time it's hard for him to find a job. He works part time - making about $900 a month. Me and my kids are use to living a nice middle class life. I make about $3200 a month - I knew this when I married my husband and that is not what I am upset about. I am upset that I have to support another kid. He is not my kid and I don't want to be financially responsible for him. I believe that the men should be the providers. I don't expect him to do everything but he needs to have a roof over our heads and food for his kid. Especially since his son acts like he is starving and eats more than everyone.

I can't stand the kid and the fact that I have to take from my children to give to him. His dad thinks that he should have all the things that my kids have, television, psp, playstation 3, ipod, etc. Yeah that's find if he is buying it for him. But, he says he gives all his money to us so it should be fair. Yeah, okay! How it that fair when his is only bringing in enough to pay some utilities and maybe put gas in his truck. The kid is nice but his is a bit of an idiot. I am sorry but he is 11 years old going on 8. Being a single parent ... my kids had to learn to do things on their own. This kid thinks he should be catered to ... and has the poor me attitude. To make things worst his dad wants him but doesn't do anything really with him.

My husband goes to work at 3 am and gets out around 10 am so he is tired when he gets home. Sometimes he comes home and doesn't get up until the next day for work. Hmmm ... does he thing about his son? NO. Does he care what he is going to eat? No. I have come to the point where me and my kids go eat and do things together and I just make sure he has food there to eat. I am not so cruel that I won't make sure that there is food for him to eat. But, if it were left to his dad he would probably starve or be eating scoops of peanut butter. I hate that he thinks I should be there for him and treat him like I treat my kids. But, why should I? It's his kid and his responsibility. I never met the mom but I can't stand the lady. What kind of woman doesn't care enough to take care of her own son?

I know she is going to raise hell when she gets out. I can't wait for her to say something stupid, Like I want to take her son from her. Or ask why I am keeping him from her. She is a pathetic excuse of a woman. I don't want her kid and I sure don't want to work the rest of my life to support him. My kids aren't a problem even through my husband says he despises the kids because we can't be happy because of them. I think he says that just because he doesn't want it to be just his kid. My kids are independent 13 and 16 respectful and don't want anything from him.

We are self sufficient and will move on without them. My husband also has medical problems that I was aware of. I am not so upset that my husband isn't meeting my husband provisional standards but that he wants full responsibility for his child but isn't stepping up to the plate. I am so miserable and am trying to think how to get out of this situation. The mother is still in prison so it's not like he can give him back anyway. But, there are more issues ... like my oldest son moving out of the house to live with his grandmother because now he has to share his room with this little mooch. I am letting my son move with my mom and I am going to help support him too. Why should he feel miserable because my husbands son needs a room. I don't want to share a house with him ... so I don't blame my son for wanting to go stay with my mom. I feel like he even took my kids room.

I am glad I found this site because at least I can write out how I feel. I want to just get my kids and skip! Even though I love my husband I don't want this kid in my life until he's 18 maybe even longer. The real pathetic thing is that I know if I leave he won't keep his son. He will be resentful towards him for me leaving ... if he got rid of the kid I would be happy to stay. It seems like a catch 22.

I am totally detaching from the kid. His dad can worry about him. I don't expect him to do anything for my kids. So, all he has to worry about is his. It's summer all he has to do is drop him off at summer camp. He hasn't done that in three weeks. I laugh inside because he can't understand why I don't do it. Well, if he can't find time to do it ... I am sorry. I work full time, have two kids, a husband and a life. I take care of my husband. He can take care of his son.