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Does Anyone Remember Me?

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Wow! It's been just over a year since I last posted on StepTalk - and what a year it's been. I have learned so much about step parenting and where I went right and where I went wrong. Mostly right of course. Biggrin

Would love to catch up even though - technically - I'm not a step parent anymore.

Ahoy! From Sailor Girl.

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My last instalment was around May, 3 months ago.

Life is good! Still not divorced, seems to be taking an age as STBXDH finds it completely foreign to be honest and frank about his assets. I moved back into the marital home because.... well.... to piss him off. No not really, I did it because all my stuff is in the area we live, gym, doctor, dentist, psychologist and...........NEW LOVE !"Blush"!

Words to describe bad behaviour and people

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I get so upset when I think about what DH has done and what he is that I find it impossible to get words out that don't consist of the "F" word. So, I've made a list (using a thersaurus) of words to use instead of swear words. It's amazing how much more effective good language skills has when telling someone off.

My favourite word that describes DH for today: Debauched

debauched" in British English

debauchedadjective uk /dɪˈbɔːtʃt/ us /dɪˈbɑːtʃt/
› made weaker or destroyed by bad sexual behaviour, drinking too much alcohol, taking drugs, etc.:

No longer a step parent

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After being on this board since SD was 7 or 8 (now 15), pouring my heart out and trying to figure out this whole stepparenting thing, I am no longer a stepparent.

I haven't been on here for a very long time and thought I would let those who remember me know that DH and I are busy with our divorce. I have moved out and am staying with my mom until financials are sorted.

ETA: Our final pleadings were filed yesterday and we are waiting for a trial date.

Okay - you can say it.... "I told you so"

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DH is now happily living with BM2 and SD2. Yep, they are co-habitating as "husband and wife" and playing happy families.

We got back together and it lasted a little over 6 weeks. I unfortunately found out that whilst we were discussing a reconciliation and attending marriage counselling whilst living apart, he was still knobbing BM2. In fact he was knobbing her right up until the day before he moved back. I forgave him.

Three weeks later he got shit faced drunk and spent the night with her. I forgave him.

Update From Sailor

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The past 5 months have been the toughest of my life without a doubt! However, after a two week stint in a Psychiatric Hospital from July 10 - 24 and intensive therapy of all different kinds since then, I emerge a new butterfly, shitting glitter, riding colourful rainbows on my unicorn. Yep, the meds are working. Biggrin

Regarding Narcissism

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For those who are wanting info and support in dealing with Narcissism, please go to http://letmereach.com/ or Google "Let me Reach with Kim Saeed". It is one of the most informative sites I have come accross on this subject. Also google "Overt vs Covert Narcissism".

Even though your partner may not display all the charateristics of a plain narcissist, there are different characteristics that overt N's display that covert N's don't and vice versa. I know someone who flips between the two depending on the situation.

What a journey.......

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Well, I've decided to log in again, contrary to my atty's advice. As long as I am talking about myself, I see no harm in posting.

It's been three months since the devastating breakup with my husband. Three very hard months. I have been living on my own for the past two months and have had a difficult time adjusting. I eventually had a complete breakdown and landed up in hospital for two weeks. I finally returned home on Friday 24th July.