I saw princess for the first time in eleven months. The sighting occured Christmas Day. I always have to sort out and work it through in my mind, what exaxctly it is that I react so strongly and negatively to. c

There a is song by Justin Hayward,while part of the Moody Blues, but is purely him. I was captivated by the Moody Blues as a five year old, which was 1970. I was purely hypnotized by Justin Hayward as a child, he was utterly pure, heavenly, safe, he remains utter goodness. It is called 'Island.' It was never known in the states, it was a buried song. But, as a child, the song, that stopped me in my step in the convenience store as I was was looking forward to a weekend up north with my best friend, Theresa, and her parents, was the very first time I heard "Nights in White Satin"

What is the nature of an aria? A single voice, carrying on, carrying through. Aria, it contains breath.

Ultimately, my aborted experiences writing here are only reflective of what I have spent the last 26 years creating. I am a gifted therapist. But I knew from the time I was able to think what I was mean to be. A writer, nothing more. A therapist can convey the voice of God if she allows herself to be a vehicle. But a writer has a much more holy and sacred duty to God.

Call it what you like, step kids, ex partners, life, jobs, what the fuck ever, it doesn't really matter. It truly is all the same.

And it is true, in its own way, don't ever believe things could be worse, because your belief will come true. As they do, as they always do. There is no difference really between heaven and hell. They are the same place. Freedom comes from existing without either of them.