His ex made her issues the family's manifesto.
I can't see all that's happened with his kids and me the same way I did.
Right now I don't know how I see things, but I know it's shifting from the way I did see things.
I've never encountered a presence like I did today seeing his ex spouse.
I think she felt fear when our eyes met. I think she understood that I see her. I think she understood that I cherish her ex spouse, my husband in the ways she may have wanted to at one time but didn't know how to.
So, what I discovered was Solitare.
I was there almost seven hours before I spoke. So I was bored sitting in the conference room, and I started thinking about my kids. For some reason that question, "Mom, do you have any games on your phone?" And my always saying, 'No, I don't know how to do that,' popped in. I figured out how to download Solitare onto my phone and I played Solitare for seven hours while waiting to say my piece.
And after seven hours of Solitare it was enjoyable to be around people and I just couldn't quite muster up tension, fatigue or anger for my testimony. I hope it was ok I laughed a few times.
I was able to meet with most people today, some not til next week.
Something has changed, loosened within me upon seeing her and understanding her through her own eyes. I think she's despicable, I always will. But she has no real power, and I've given her far too much.
I feel liberated having seen 'the ex' for the first time. After four years of knowing my husband. I know there's a reason for everything.