Our prayers were NOT answered
As a matter of fact, I think this qualifies as the Worst Weekend Ever. I've spent a lot of my time these past 24 hours wondering how someone can be so utterly malcontent and focused on causing problems. It's not just a little misunderstanding here or there. It's literally, EVERY SINGLE THING that she hears happens, she goes off the deep end about. Seriously. I don't think that this would be such a problem if BF allowed her to have the 24/7 total-immersion contact with him and SS that BM wants. But I'm sorry, we will NOT allow her to run our household, and that's exactly what she wants. But when BF told her that her rules do not apply in his house, what did she say? "Well it's not YOUR house, it's NYMH'S house, and legally you have NO right to make ANY rules there!!!" WTF? Even if that made any sense at all, her rules don't apply in MY house either, and never stand a chance in hell of ever applying in my house!
We had saved recordings on BF's answering machine at work of calls that BM forced SS to make because his lawyer wanted them preserved in their original form as well as recorded onto tape. Well, one of the guys at BF's store went through and emptied the machine yesterday because she had called and filled it full of messages again. We have six microcassette tapes full of her nagging and griping and trying to boss us around. She sends email after email saying the exact same thing (all of which have NOTHING to do with SS) and then when BF doesn't respond (who would?) she calls 18 times and leaves the same message over and over. I can't count the messages, emails, and phone calls we have recorded from her this weekend which all say "Turn SS's phone back on!" or "I'm calling the police!" or "I'm filing grievances against her employer!" or "I'm suing your county for wrongdoing against me!" She says she will get what she deserves and she doesn't care who she hurts in the process. She really said that. She's suing the judge, both of BF's lawyers, my employer, and BF for multiple different reasons. She says that BF owes her $16,000 for past marital debt (sorry, he owes that to the companies you're indebted to, not to you) and about $1000 in past medical expenses (again, sorry, you never provided him with a SINGLE receipt!), and she'll be suing him for that along with anything else she can think of.
She was talking to BF the other day about some more lies she's made up and put in SS's mouth. She unknowingly was on speakerphone, and SS was sitting right there next to BF listening to the whole conversation. He sat there and listened as BM made up lie after lie about what goes on at our home and said that SS told her these things. Then she even encouraged BF to ask SS, thinking that he'd back her up. NOPE! He was like, "No..." After about 4 invalidations of her lies from SS, she said that SS would tell every lie under the sun in BF's presence. Then she said "Put SS on the phone and put him on speaker." BF informed her that she was already on speaker, and everyone in the room was listening to her lies and her call her own son a liar, including SS. In another conversation, she said she didn't want SS coming home asking her what "uuuh, uuhh, uuhuhh" meant with the bed shaking like he did last week. Sorry, bitch, I was on my F**** G*** D*** PERIOD LAST WEEK so your BULL**** YET AGAIN DOES NOT MAKE ANY SENSE YOU LYING C***! What does she think she can just make shit up and it is true only by sheer force of will? You can't just write our lives for us! Sorry, we actually LIVE THEM OURSELVES!
I AM SO SICK OF THIS. It's not even 5AM and I've been up since 4. I'm not supposed to be up until 6. I can't sleep. My blood pressure has been sky-high for two days. I'm sick to my stomach all the time. Food makes me nauseous, but somehow I'm gaining weight. I cry on and off all day. And no, BM, I'm NOT pregnant. I just feel so overwhelmed. I have to keep this house clean because heaven forbid I not put the laundry away or provide clean dishes for everyone else to eat off of. I have to work 45+ hours a week and then help BF run his business on top of that, and an average of 10 hours a week of work I take home with me. I have to take care of two sick kittens (who I'm almost convinced have now made ME sick), a dog, and every other household thing. And on top of that, I'm the one who records all of BM's phone messages onto tape for BF to bring to his lawyers. He simply clicks to the next one without listening to what she says. I'm the one who has to sit through hours of her bitching every single day and record it onto tape. I'm the one who gets to sit and listen as she threatens every single shred of our existence. I'm the one who listens as she says she will sue everyone she can for everything she can, and then says it's because she doesn't care anymore and she's over it. IF YOU WERE OVER IT, YOU'D BE OVER IT!!! You wouldn't bitch 24/7. You wouldn't threaten everything and everyone you can. You wouldn't try so hard to be up BF's ass. You wouldn't call 30 times a day when SS is here. And you WOULDN'T do all of that, then the next day tell BF you want him to come home and be a family!!!!
*explodes*
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STOP NYMH
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting different results. Lord knows I've been insane for several years but I'm now starting to feel the ground squarely beneath my feet.
I have been a member of this site for a year (or is it 2???). I have been here almost daily during that time, checking in on people to see how they were doing and gaining priceless insights into my own situation.
I can sense that you are at the end of the rope. With everything that you feel you are responsible for, it's no wonder you feel like you are going down for the third time.
It is time to put all the responsibilty squarely where it belongs. You need to cut yourself off from any contact at all with your incredible BB. If your BF needs all these e-mails and phone messages to build a case... then he should be gathering the info, not you.
I completely understand that in the beginning you did all this to help and you just wanted everyone to be happy. But along the way you became you became the abused ( by BB) and the used (by BF). Just don't do it anymore. I know you think that it's too simplistic but believe me it aint going to happen by you just wishing it would. They might be caught in a vicious cycle but what possible good is it doing anybody with you going down that same path. Just like you they have the same opportunity to jump this sinking ship. It's all about free will and taking back the only person you do have control over...Yourself
Life is never going to turn out the way you want it because there are too many people who all want their lives exactly the way they want it too. So it stands to reason that alot of compromise has to go on for some sort of harmony to exist but you also need to be true to yourself. We spend too much time respecting other people's rights without realizing that we are just as deserving too.
Take care Nymh
In total agreement here.
De inimico non loquaris sed cogities.
You really need to let bf handle everything,dealing with bm was and is his responsibility.I totally understand your frustrations,however, when trying to help bf is causing you this much personal turmoil then it is time to step away from it all. Believe me, it does work.