I think we all lose it sometimes....I think being pre-menopausal (sp) can sometimes be as horrible as being bi-polar....but anyway...I find that when I act badly if I tell my DH that I can RECOGNIZE why I acted the way I did and try to take responisbility for it....he truly does understand...I think you did the right thing by admitting that you were wrong and maybe if u tell him tonite when u get home that you yourself hate being like this and u want to feel better soon and you are trying everything u can to feel better,...maybe he will understand a little bit of what u are going thru I wish u the best!!

"Sooner or later, everyone's bill comes due"

you need to breath, and try as hard as you can to slow your mind down(I know easier said than done), but it will help you be clear to move on to the next step, being setting up a appointment with a /your counselor (if you have one), and discussing this with your doc., maybe setting up an appointment with your doc. to see if they can help. It sounds like you have moved into a manic phase, where you can't sleep, stress builds up, can't eat,...like the things you described. Some meds. can even make that worse insted of better. If , later today, you gp to your DH, and take blame where blame is due, but, tell him that you recognize what it is, and that you are getting yourself help for it by calling, and seeing someone, it should make a difference. Discuss with him how worth it he and SD are to you, to push through this, and remind him that with bipolar disorder, this mood your in will not last forever, and should not define your relationship, or who you are as a person. Have the 2 of you ever spoken to a counselor together ?? Bipolar disorder does not just affect the person who has it, it affects all who are closely involved. And dealing with it can be hard on people. It's ok to admit that it's hard and you need help. Your DH needs to know that too. I hope this helps you. Try not to worry. Remember that nothing just happenes over night, there is still time. "We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand."~ Randy Pausch

It seems to me that H is not very supportive and understanding of your disorder. Does he even realize how far you're being pushed with stress and everything else? Especially since you're in school full-time. I'm in school full-time, and I'm stressed out a lot too!

I would definitely sit down with your H or maybe go to counseling and explain what is going inside your head because sadly men can't read our minds. Tell him that you're scared he'll leave... let him know!

And when you're done talking with him... give yourself a break. Slow it down, and breathe.

And seek to remedy it. I applaud you completely!

And your DH and SD need to understand and support you, as well as seek their own help in doing so. One of the best books I've ever read has to do with borderline not bipolar, but my SD is likely dealing with both (as is BM.)

Reading up on your issue, and/or seeing a family counselor, can help everyone to understand the position of everyone else. The book I read for instance, not only helped me realize that I wasn't losing it and SD really did have a problem, but really heavily focused on how my way of relating to her may make her more reactionary.In other words, I had to own up to my contribution.

Because none of us, no matter if we aren't bipolar or any number of those type things, are without negative negative relationship patterns (most of us on here are on our second- or more- marriages after all.) No matter who has what issue that makes relationships challenging, EVERYONE in the family is responsible for how they relate to everyone else. PERIOD.

Please know, that this is NOT just on you to fix, it's not about fault or blame, and Family is about everyone doing their best to learn how to love, support, nurture and relate to each other!

Ok...preaching done ;)Kudos to your desire to make amends. Be sincere, but...don't let it all fall on your shoulders.

"When you take charge of your life, there is no longer need to ask permission of other people or society at large. When you ask permission, you give someone veto power over your life." ~Geoffrey F. Abert

Be thoughtful. Be considerate. Take your meds consistently. Also be kind to yoursef when you make a mistake and recognize it (like you did here) and ask for forgiveness. Sounds like the stress factor in your life is ordering you around. Sorry you are going through this.

I don't know too much about Bipolar Disorder but I do know about perimenopause and menopause. When I had a problem that was bugging me, my symptoms were always more acute. When my emotions were in tact because my life was "calm", I was almost symptom-free.

I have been post menopausal for 1.5 years and have not even mentioned it to my husband. I DON'T MAKE ANNOUNCEMENTS.