Well, after dealing with everything that happened on Saturday night and Sunday (last blog explains), I am stressed out and distant. I feel distant to myself. I guess I just kind of shut down. I allowed him to stay last night but he had to sleep in the nursery on a cot. Our daughter slept in our room in her pack n' play. He didn't bitch and has been very nice. Today our daughter had a Dr. appt. He went with me and she had 2 shots. She hasn't felt good all day so she has me even more stressed out. She is such a good baby and hardly ever cries but I just don't know what to do to help her.
I told him that he really needs to get help for his depression. He says thats why he drinks like he has been. He also told me that he doesn't want to go on medication. I told him that obviously he can't deal with it himself so he needs help. I also told him that it is effecting everyone in his life. He is going to screw his life up, wind up old and lonely, and if he keeps it up - his children will feel the effects too and hold it against him. I grew up with a severly depressed mother - I know how I resented her for years!!! He said that if I want him to take meds, he will do it. I don't want to force him but I think he needs to be pushed to do something good for himself and for everyone who is effected by him!! Am I wrong to push him to get meds??
I am just so up in the air. I don't even know how I feel about him anymore!!!