DH and I went to his family's house which is about 2 hours away this weekend. Plans were made to see his grandkids..he has 4 kids and 3 of them have children.

He then mentions that his daughter - who I LOATHE - MAY be coming. He mentions it casually...

So my thoughts go back to her psychotic rant back in January..she hates my guts, I'm his worst mistake, I've ruined his life, I've destroyed such a good man...I could go on and on but she made me feel in ways that I've never felt towards anyone before. Hatred is the word of the moment.

So..part of me didn't want to go then when I heard she was going.

So DH asked me very sweetly..said he didn't want to do this without me and deep down I knew it wasn't fair to the other grandkids - who I REALLY love and want to see - for me to not go due to this bitch showing up.

SO...we all met at the movie theater first. She thought I was going to acknowledge her...I did not. She handed me her son - who is the sweetest thing - and called me grandma. Which she never has before but for whatever reason thought she had to try to win me over I guess. Then told me she had a picture for me that she had taken recently of her son..I just nodded.

We all watched the movie and headed back to his mother's house. I told him in the car on the way that I was still so furious with her that more than likely I would blow my stack with her this weekend. I told him that being around her made the hair on my neck to stand straight. I have never truly told her how I felt and by the time the weekend was over she just may find out.

I saw my DH's face go white..he barely knew what to say. I told him that HE may take her shit..."I" do not. I didn't care if we were with family or not..depending on how I feel, she just may get her ass ripped in 2 before the day was out.

Arriving at his mother's house, he took his mother aside and told her I was furious with his daughter and he felt there was going to be a horrible confrontation...

His mother said "So?"

She despises this girl - just as I.

DH was a basket case..I truly do not think he honestly felt I am so over wanting to be around her until this weekend. He did everything in his power to try to 'fix' the situation.

I have to admit..when 3 of the grandkids called me grandma and was ready to play...my heart went out to them and I just wanted them happy. So I did my best to hold my tongue.

SD tried to even tell me she loved me..I never even looked her way. I didn't even act like I heard it. She got all excited because she saw me talking/laughing with her husband..she thought she was going to jump in the conversation. I acted like she wasn't even there.

I almost felt childish doing it..but I swear..if I had NOT done this...ladies...I would have BLOWN UP. I swear to God I had such a migraine when the day was over because I had to shut my mouth. To be around her made me sick..just turned my stomach.

Funny thing - she tried to tell my MIL about her wonderful mother going to jail...as to which my MIL loudly told her to shut up and she didn't care to hear that shit in her house. SD looked like someone kicked her in the stomach..I had a HUGE laugh over that. Mommy is passing bad checks again..so what's new??

So....I kept my cool in front of 25 people. I caught SD staring at me with sad puppy dog eyes like 'oh woest me'. I had no thoughts of giving her any time of day and probably won't for quite some time. And to watch my DH - wow - he honestly was scared to death. No one has hardly spoke out about his daughter but his mother...I hide nothing. What I say behind his back to his family...I say to him. And I come to find out his family was FURIOUS that she got invited. His stepfather HATES my SD..and doesn't hide it.

It's an odd place to be in - almost everyone in my husband's family can't stand to be around my SD..yet the hide it because of my husband's sake.

Will I ever be that strong? While I'm ready to kick her ass like the dog she is...they can hide their loathing of her and yes there's tension but they do it.

Thoughts?