I was so excited last week when my skids both went off to scout camp and DH and I were finally going to be able to have some much needed "us" time, not to mention my break from said little people to whom I rarely get a break from.

To be nice, DH booked me a ticket to tag along on his business trips with the promise that we would get to spend time together once he got off work. Boy, was I in for a treat! Not only did we not spend time after he got off work, but he went out for a fancy dinner both nights and I picked him up hoping maybe we could go out together, stay out late without kids, but no. Wrong again. DH was drinking it up with his boss and was in no condition to go out again, much less do anything fun with me.

Then I realized, this is probably what all his weekly business trips are like. I felt like the annoying third wheel, just for asking to have lunch together. I ate all of my meals alone during that trip and felt a little slighted. I guess work really comes first for him.

Then when we get home and have to pick up the kids from camp its happy fun time for the kids...let the kids do whatever they want because daddy missed them so much. Lets take them sailing, fishing, etc. while there is laundry to do and tons of other chores piling up. But DH doesn't care, after all, I work part time and have all week to finish them while he goes back to work(and on business trips).

I am so tired of feeling like a nanny here, and now I feel even worse that he has shown little regard for our relationship as well. No respect from all sides. I am just tired and frustrated by all the annoying "kids are so great, I am so great, so now take care of us" crap. Just want to cry all day because I don't know what else to do. Done counseling and its all empty promises from the family of 'salespeople' I married into. Bull sh*t.

Okay, thanks for letting me vent...