Ok, I've been doing good for a couple days now, I didn't even cry the other night when my stbxh's gf put shit about him on Facebook, but tonight I don't know what is wrong with me I just can't stop crying. I hate, hate, hate my life right now. I should be home lying in bed with my husband but instead I'm living with my mom and stepdad now and I just want to be...I don't even know what I want. I sound so horrible to myself because I'm so grateful to them for being there for me through all this and letting me stay here. I just wish that none of this had ever happened and I could go back to being happy with my husband. I know, I know I shouldn't want to be with him ever again after what he's done to me and I know in time I'll feel differently but this shit just still hurts soooo damn bad and I want him to take me in his arms and tell me it's all been a bad dream. I just want the pain to go away.