I've tried my best and let go of the resentment I had towards my SS and BM, it's just not worth it. SS is really a good kid and deep down I love him, I just let stupid bull$#!* keep me from seeing that and now I've lost him and DH. DH says he'll always have doubts about me resenting SS, which I can completely understand. I've told DH that I know it will be hard but I feel deep down we will regret not trying to save our marriage, he refuses to even try. That's what hurts the most is that he can just give up so easily. The funny thing is all his stuff and his dog are still at our house and he won't actually come out and say the "D" word. He just says he thinks we lost our chance. I guess not I have to start taking care of myself now and not give a S#!^ about him anymore.