I snapped today.
Completely, totally snapped. Absolutely no filter. I meant every single word and it was a long time coming but I am still made out to be the "bad" one.
I detest his children. After years of trying, after years of biting my tongue, and years before that of being in the fantasy that I could "save" them from their psycho mother, I see that soon-to-be ex-h completely enables them too. No consistency, no holding them to what they should be accountable for, NOT just BM doing this. These kids are basically infants yet they are growing up too fast because they hang out with nasty older kids at their school and their mother is trying her best to teach them to be little thugs.
I dread coming home, and I've had to do it twice today, after work and after a part-time job just now. And of course he, the one who owes people money and has made a shambles of his finances with filthy pig ex-wife wouldn't think of going out at night to work a part-time job.
So basically it seems like divorce is imminent, and it looks like he's going to choose his two older children over our son. It will be ok though; DS8, DD, DS6months and I will be fine. It will be ok. I am relieved, frankly. I am sad that I got myself into this situation but man, tons of people walk into the shit show that is a blended family thinking that it will be something different. And, had I not, I would not have my sweet baby.
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*HUGS* I'm sorry about your
*HUGS* I'm sorry about your situation. I went into this situation with a totally different idea about how things would be. It sucks but we work through it. DH is willing to listen (well most of the time) and he tries to change things. I definitely could not put up with what you described yikes. Good luck to you and your kiddos!
I hope things work out well
I hope things work out well for you. I am going through a rough patch with my DH right now and we have talked about separating and divorce. I am not sure what will happen with us but I too was blessed with a DS4 months if this marriage does end soon. I knew that SD18 is immature, irresponsible, entitled, slow-witted and obnoxious like her mother, but I kept telling myself when we got married last year, "Two years and she will be out of high school and gone." Well, time has seemed to slow down and each day drags. As I stated earlier, her apple cart is not completely full, so graduation this Semester is looking shaky for her. Like you, my DH knows how I feel about her. I have tried to like this girl, but after a night of her disrespectful mouth and attitude last month, I have come to terms with the fact that I do not like her. I no longer try and I have nothing to do with her because if she does that again, it would end very badly for her. SS17 is intelligent, more responsible and respectful. I have always liked him, but I can do without her in my life.
So, know that you are not alone in this situation!