I've been searching all over for advices since I'm not getting any in the places I've been looking.

Let me go from the beginning.

I've met a guy, he's 50yrs and I'm 30yrs.... when I first met him, I had no idea he was divorced but I was told that he has 3 kids. This went by so fast that after meeting him in a year we decided to get marry(this was not a marriage that I wanted)  after the fact that he begged my parents for my hand in marriage and they convinced me.