Hello:)

I don't know... sometimes i think there's something wrong with me! I cannot find it in my heart to accept a little girl and love her unconditionally. Ya see, as long as i could remember, i ONLY wanted to have little boys running around the house. In fact, as luck would have it, i have two. It may have something to do with being raised by a single mother, and three sisters. Too many women in our family:)
I am in a really good relationship with a man my boys adore (he's not bio dad). I want to marry this man. Only problem is, he's been raising his step grand-daughter for years (she's now 13)... she was placed with her grandmother (his wife) when her bio mom & dad were too busy doing drugs, and then grandmother died... my fiance stepped up and continued to raise her on his own.
It comes so natural to most people to accept and love a child that's not their own. WHY IS IT FOR ME?! We've been together for 3yrs now... and sadly, my feelings have not changed. Sometimes, i almost resent her for being dumped in my fiance's lap. (he doesn't feel that way~ i do) Some of her blood ties have taken us to court to try and get visitation and such... I think if she were even blood related to him in some way, that might make a difference. When we first started dating, i referred to her as his grand-daughter, and he got very upset. He loves her like a daughter.... and ofcourse, in his eyes she can do no wrong. He can correct the boys, yet I cannot get onto her about anything without him getting upset.
When i was married to the boys father... i was Queen of the house! Now, i have to contend with a princess. I'm worried i will never feel love for her and hope it doesn't ruin what i have with this man. Any advice out there?