Okay, what I'm going to say isn't going to make a lick of sense, but I'm going to rant anyway.

I've been struggling lately because I'm really sick and cant really do much but sleep or stay in bed all day. If i try to get out of bed I feel absolutely shaky and I have no energy to do anything. I've been to a doctor and its a bit personal as to what sickness but im not contagious. 

Anyway, all I have wanted is for BM to take her kids because it had gotten to the point both boys SS10 and SS4 were saying she hates them. I don't want them to grow up hating their mother.

My SS turned 4 recently. I want him to go to preschool because the kid needs friends and social interaction outside of his brother his dad and me. His dad agrees and it would also take a lot off me not having to practically raise these boys. We have talked to BM about SS10 going to physical school and as far as I know she plans on it.

So I have two SS9 and SS5. SS9 is a bit of a nightmare, but I have learned to just distance myself from him. He can feed himself so he doesn't require any attention. SS5 on the other hand wants and needs attention 24/7. He talks over everyone no matter who is talking. I would be on the phone with my parents that I rarely get to talk to and he's screaming over them and me asking about food, juice, tellimg me he needs to go to the bathroom, or really anything else he can talk about. 

My SS9 has been driving me crazy about Fortnite. Every word he speaks is about that stupid game. He's been getting rude as I told him to stop screaming at the game when his father was napping after work, and all he said was "I'm not even screaming." Now, due to a few arguments with his BM, I have informed everyone that I will not be part of any discipline. However, I am in a family where I am the only one that knows how to work the internet.