I havn't posted in a long time because we only get the boys every other weekend so I honestly don't think about it much anymore. 
 

This year we have them for Thanksgiving break. Basically the paper says whenever they are released for break till they have to go back to school. They had a whole week off so we picked them up Friday and technically supposed to drop them off Sunday but their mom asked if she could have them Friday so she doesn't miss her weekend

Basically we would have dropped them off Sunday and pick them up Friday anyway. 
 

So when school started they weren't supposed to be here at durring the week. And only be here every other weekend. That for some reason changed to me being required to take them to and from school because she never picks them up... ever... on Saturday she does.... for the night. Picks them up 8pm drops them back off 2pm the next day.

I honestly wouldn't care that much if I wasn't paying her money every month to take care of them...

So when I was younger maybe like 14 or so my mom took me to a gyno and this man told me I will never have kids biologically. I didn't care until I got older and idealized getting married to my now husband. He had two boys when we got together and at first I loved it. I loved the feeling of being a mother because even though they have and I am not their biological mother, they treated me like I was.... for the first few months. 

This made me think... I want kids of my own. 
 

Don't feel a certain thing just because you think you're supposed to. 

Whether it's to feel love for the step children in your life or any other feeling you don't actually feel. Don't feel bad for how you feel.

My husband and I moved across 2 states leaving both of our families behind to be with his boys so they weren't raised by BM and turn into a mini her. Nobody wants that. Trust we are helping society out on that one.