If you read my earlier blogs you know they are trying to press charges on me for neglect of only the SD. I finally feel a little better about this and what happens....
my BS4 gets in the car this morning crying. saying why doesn't sissy love me. I lost it a little. I pull over the car and look at him, I tell him Sissy does love you. sissy's confused and angry. he said yeah you sent her away. (deep breath) i said look reason sissy and i don't get a long is im not sissys mom. he goes what! i said your sissy has a different mommy, you don't hear about her becuase shes not here. shes stupid. he says don't say stupid. i said this one time i can. i said thats why sissys hurting. he then crys and asks why he can't help her why she doesn't want to stay with him and bub. i said well bub you can help you and daddy can sit down and color a picture and write a letter and send it to her in the mail. he says you can too. later my MIL says the same thing....what if im not ready what if i don't want a relationship anymore...im in major trouble because of her. i can't even work with kids at church...kids are my life... i don't want anything to do with her. but i hate that my son is feeling this way... i can't help...heck i feel how he feels except all her shit is pointed at me...thats why she is gone... anything else i can do?