In one week's time my son got his Driver's License, had his final BOR for his Eagle Rank and was confirmed. And on Saturday he has his first date. I am watching these milestones with my son and besides being emotional and wishing my first husband was alive to see it, I am frustrated with DH. He is a PIA on this stuff. It is as if he can not be happy for my son. He keeps making smart remarks and mocking me for being emotional. He did sit through mass last night for two hours and I appreciate it, but he was disrespectful of the service and doesn't understand the significance of being confirmed. He made smart remarks about how it was nothing like a Bar Mitzvah and that they have to learn Hebrew to prepare. BS16 just had to memorize a few details for the Archbishop. I told him Catholics don't torment their teens the way the Jewish religion does. This from a guy who is actually atheist....Normally I wouldn't make these kind of remarks, but he was obnoxious with his comments about my religion.

It feels like a pissing match in my house this week. He made comments about everything. When BS completed the last BOR this week, he was not willing to go with. Didn't feel it necessary. Every other kid there had their Dad. I know he is a stepdad, but he could try harder. He made a comment that my BS and I were a little hard to deal with this week. My son and I have a great relationship and because it has been just the two of us for so long, we are very much in sync. DH makes comments all the time about it, but this week seems to be irritated by us.

When we were talking about going shopping about a present for BS friend's 16 birthday, she is taking him to a BB Game for her birthday, DH said there was no way he could tolerate doing anything with BS and I since we were just crazy this week. I told him that he wished he had half the relationship with his son that I have with mine. He said his relationship is fine, they talk...Yeah right. SS12 only talks when he feels like it and that is rarely. But, keep telling yourself that. Cruel I know, but I am done with the smart remarks this week....

I feel bad he has no relationship with SD15 and a minimal one with SS12. But, do not diminish what my son is accomplishing. I am so proud of him and I am not allowed to say it out loud. I am starting to plan his Eagle Ceremony and DH doesn't want to discuss it, he could care less.

My son's life could have been very different after his father died. But, I made sacrifices both professionally and personally so that he would be okay. I chose to have a career that was flexible so I could be home most days after he got off the bus. I never paid for grades. I expected Straight A's. His kids are polar opposites. He has to bribe for grades. No one is expected to do anything extra curricular. We have SS in Karate and that is a joke. He barely participates depending on his mood. SD15 has gone to lunch with her Dad twice since she left our house a year ago and she lives in the subdivision across from us. Her latest accomplishment was getting her ear pierced at the top for her 15th birthday from her mom. Her excitement on Facebook was that she broke cartilidge.

I am a mess of emotions this week with my son and am thrilled with what he has accomplished. I wish my husband was alive and I wasn't in this marriage. 1st DH would have been so proud and not tried to diminish any of these accomplishments. Sorry just needed to vent. I do love my husband most of the time, but he makes it very difficult.

To add to our drama this week we also heard from the lawyers that BM is correcting the CO modification agreement that they agreed to three months in court. Now we have to wait and see what the changes are from her lawyer. This is ongoing and I am tired of that woman impacting our lives. I just want her and her daughter to go away.....I have even thought about offering to buy her house from her to get her to move. She is making me Insane....