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1 APPT down, 1 to go... and I am done. Like, really done.

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Submitted by iwannagoback on Thu, 11/11/2010 - 2:54pm

I am going to leave DH. I hope my courage does not fail me like it has in the past. I need to go.

DH does not treat me with the love & respect I deserve, he sets a poor example for my children when they observe the way he treats his children, and I DO NOT want to step-parent his children. The thought of living through SS5 K-12 and beyond, and the fact that SS17 might never fully be independent makes me suicidal. Literally.

I will fake it through the shrink 2night & hopefully start extricating myself from the biggest mistake I ever made.

HELP! I have that familiar sick feeling........

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Submitted by iwannagoback on Sun, 11/07/2010 - 10:05am

of dread.... for 9AM Monday............... when the world's most annoying 5YO will arrive.......

And this is the week I am being forced on the one day I am supposed to be 100% FREE OF SS5 to go to NOT ONE, BUT TWO dr appts for him - annual physical in AM, shrink in PM.

I HATE EVERYTHING TO DO WITH THIS CHILD! LEAVE ME THE F ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DH HAS NO OBLIGATIONS W/MY KIDS I RESENT THIS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ISN'T IT ENOUGH THAT I PROVIDE FREE DAYCARE FOR THIS UNBEARABLE CHILD WHEN BOTH MY BIOs ARE IN SCHOOL?!?!?

I'm done....

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Submitted by iwannagoback on Mon, 11/01/2010 - 7:38am

tolerating negative, miserable behavior.

SS17 wakes up/enters house and the first words out of his mouth are always loud complaints. I now cut him off immediately & tell him if its negative/drama/complaints he is not allowed to speak. I am sick & tired of everyone's mornings & afternoons being disrupted by this whirlwind of negativity.

I dread...

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Submitted by iwannagoback on Sun, 10/24/2010 - 6:28am

the knock on the door tomorrow at 9AM when SS5 is dropped off.
dealing with SS5 Stepdad.
the 10 minutes it takes for SS5 to climb into car & put on seatbelt (& another 10 minutes to climb out.)
the eventual inevitable whine "Iiimmmmmm Huuuuunnnnnnggggggrrryyyyyyyyy......."
the crying that will start when SS5 cannot figure out how to turn on TV/change channel/etc.
BS9's reaction when he realizes it is a SS5 day.
BS9's frustration when SS5 insists on following him everywhere, every minute - even into the bathroom.