Had to pick SD12 up from school last week because she walked out of class in hopes of impressing one of her classmates. Got another call from her teacher today complaining about her attitude, refusing to do her classwork and being all around disrespectful. We've taken everything from her dresses and jewelry to her freedom and all privileges which obviously made no damn difference since her teacher has stated her behavior is even worse than before. The kicker is she's not a bad kid! She's not one of those spoiled, self indulgent, disrespectful little that's you want to backhand, no those are the girls she's trying to impress. SD12 is just a follower and in hopes of fitting in with the cool girls she's acting like one of them. So I'll be spending a few hours sitting next to her in class tomorrow. Hopefully it'll be embarrassing enough or at the very least it will intimidate the aforementioned to where they leave her be. The woman in the office at her school told me that she was so glad to have spoken to me because so few of these kids have parents that care and are willing to be involved. That didn't make me feel better or happy, it made me sad that this has become the rarity.

Speaking of negligent parents, I picked SD6 up from school yesterday because DH was getting off work by 5. I was not just embarrassed but appalled by her appearance. It's usually bad but she had on filthy stretch pants with a zipper that wouldn't zip, her underwear were hanging out of the top because the pants were so low cut, her stomach hung out the bottom of her shirt and her unwashed hair was kinked up in front from the braid I had put in it Monday morning. I couldn't believe BM sent her to school like that; I was embarrassed to take her into Walmart and it's Walmart for fucks sake!

According to the court order, we're supposed to have SD6 on Wednesday and EOW; Ten days and eight nights per month; today is the 6th and we'll have had her five nights in May already. The one day that BM has her in a week and she pawns her off on her first husband's mother for most of the afternoon, put her to bed at 7 and can't even bathe her! SD hasn't been there in a week and she doesn't even have one clean, suitable outfit to wear to school. BM hasn't bothered to sign her up for summer school, DH hasn't bothered to talk to the hag about SD6 staying here over the summer and all the while the CS is racking up. God forbid I say something to the cunt, that's always met with 'I'll do it' and would you ladies believe it, it doesn't get done!

SS14 got kicked off the bus earlier in the week and his various meds for ADHD aad depression aren't doing much for his impulse control once he's out of sight. BS13 is slacking on his homework and chores, all of their rooms are beyond disgusting, I've got a cold coming on; a situation which isn't helped by the fact that I've stopped working out and upped my smoking to 2 packs a day. DH seems like he's never home lately and even when he's here, he's not here. I didn't mind being a single mother with a job and one son. I don't particularly enjoy feeling like a single mother with 4 kids, especially given the fact that SD6'S BM is an idiot who makes things more difficult and more expensive.

I can't even get working cable service for fucks sake. Two technicians, two hours, still no cable. As if I'd get time to watch it. Sigh.