May was a great month, we had ss only 9 days and it was heaven! We got a lot of projects for the house done, kept up on grocery shopping, the house stayed clean (as long as I did the dishes once a day), enjoyed one another's company, actually went to a movie...I felt like I had a "husband" and not a roommate.

Now it is June...this weekend is our last skid-free weekend until the end of July. No more skid free weekends until 7/27. I just finished staring/recounting the calendar with dread three times to make sure I wasn't mistaken. 

7 skid-filled weekends on top of one full week starting 7/1. Not including the regular weekday schedule. This wouldn't be so bad if the May schedule wasn't so screwed up.  Yes, I enjoy the stretch of time with DH, however DH has not seen SS since 5/21 drop off.  He was supposed to have SS yesterday but BM is on vacation with him so this Monday will be the first time he has seen SS in 13 days.  SS was supposed to call once on this "vacation", preferably yesterday since that was supposed to be DH day.  SS knows the phone number.  He hasn't called, and  BM not answering phone.  I honestly wish BM would have planned her 'vacation' better so DH could have seen SS yesterday.  Then it only would have been 9 days without seeing him. Not quite so "end of the world".  BM calls SS when we have him, yet when DH calls no answer. 

This is going to be a full on "Disney dad meltdown".  The part that irks me is we spent all of last weekend on house projects that weren't really needed(but of course DH wanted to do them NOW, we didn't have SS), then 5 hours on memorial day driving in circles around a war memorial burial site trying to get in to place flowers (couldn't get through the traffic).  Of course he did all these things, he didn't have to "feel guilty about taking away time from SS".  I know 100% he wouldn't have gone to the memorial with SS because SS would have been bored. I have nothing against going to the memorial, but I hate the double-standard that comes with skid/non-skid weekends.  Because all SM's know the world must stop turning when skid is over.  No chores, no responsibility, no boredom, rainbows and unicorns 24/7.  I don't think I can do "rainbows and unicorns" until the end of July.

Last skid free weekend, what does DH want to do? Paint the house...

I just laughed when he brought it up and said "okay DH, first pay me your $101 (total for bills this month was $309.22) for utilities, and if  you have any money left to pay BM CS on Monday and buy paint and a ladder then we can paint the house this weekend." We don't even own a ladder and DH wants to paint the house. Smh.

I can feel myself becoming bitter and anxious already about this summer.  It doesn't help that one of the weekends we have a wedding of a very close friend of ours... on a skid weekend.  The last wedding we went to with SS we only were able to stay for dinner and barely an hour after that because SS tablet died and he didn't want to play with the other kids there.  SS was bored and tired and DH kept on apologizing to HIM for bringing him there.  We had never brought SS to a wedding before, if I had known that was going to happen I would have driven separate. 

This wedding is several hours away and it's a weekend event (camping) so I prefer to not drive separate if we don't have to due to the gas expense.  And as far as DH staying home with SS..these friends of ours were in our wedding. They don't' care if we bring SS because it's a "kid-friendly wedding", but they haven't seen how DH is with SS.  The saying "kids don't always get to do what they want to do" doesn't apply here.

I'm anxious about the extra food expense when SS is over.  Meal planning will be out the window.  I warned DH back in Feb to save up for higher utility costs (SS falls asleep with lights on because he won't go to bed when we do, timer plug in wasn't effective) and higher food costs due to SS being here more often. Lately he has been eating us out of house and home (growth spurt maybe) DH will make him a plate, SS will eat and 5 minutes later "Dadeee I'm still hungwy" and we have to find him something else.  He is eating as much as DH right now.  I remember one short visitation day (four hours) SS ate a large hamburger, fries, and pasta salad.  Exactly a half-our before drop off he was "still hungwy" and we didn't have any leftovers so he ate 2 large bowls of cereal and peanut butter toast.  He is not overweight in the slightest. 

I know it's easy to say "let DH deal with it, if you need more food make him buy it".  Problem with that is, DH will buy it.  Then he won't have any money for the utilities.  Plus DH tabs for his vehicle are due in July as well.  This is going to be an expensive summer, and despite my warnings, he is not prepared what-so-ever.  "slightly anxious" doesn't even begin to cover my level of anxiety.

any other SM's dreading the upcoming summer?