Being new to blogging on this site, I'm not sure where to start... Ok here goes. Sometimes I hate myself. Can anyone relate? I'm embarrassed by my past and don't want to live there, but it keeps seeping into my present. I've been married and divorced 3 times. I'm in my 4th marriage by almost 6 years. 2 children from my first which lasted 5 years. No children from my 2nd marriage which lasted only 2 years. 2 children from my 3rd which lasted 14 years. My husband was married just once before that lasted 5 years and has one daughter, age 22. His divorce was 16 years ago.