that my dh is acting crazy and my ss14 is a freaky brat. But alas, it continues. We did take a week away to go to the beach-without ss14 and it was fairly nice. My dh did have some moments of I guess "insanity" but overall it was a fairly nice time. Got back last week and we are at square 1-well maybe actually -1.

I am worried about my dh. I mean seriously, gneuinely concerned. Less annoyed and angry and just truly scared that there is something wrong with him. He lost 50 pounds in a month. He sleeps maybe 3 hours a night-with maybe once a week getting a good night of 8 hours. He is paranoid. I believe he is delusional. He cannot accomplish tasks. While on vaca-kids and I went to the mall which was in walking distance of our beach house-called him and asked him to meet us for supper. It took him almost an hour and he showed up almost in tears stating that he needed to get a VA appt as soon as he got back because he's just not functional. I'm not even sure what happened in the hour and what led him to that conclusion.

He believes that while we were gone someone broke into our home and installed a new garage door opener. He also believes someone came into the garage, stole and wrecked our scooter and put on new parts and a front tire. He believes someone came in and changed the lock on our desk. He thinks someone switched the power cord with a different one to our printer. He believes that the a hacker is hacking into our computer system through the garage door, a radio, his spinal cord stimulator in his back. He says random things that make no sense. He's referencing Iraq and the military frequently. It scares me even writing these things out.

Some things have occurred in our home over the last few months. They are genuine. His siblings have stolen from us. Our computer system has been hacked into. A lot of his things were being moved around (found out ss14 was doing that stuff). I think all these things together have pushed dh over the edge to where know he is delusional and paranoid.

He has been off his meds for some months now. He did finally get those in the mail yesterday and he took all of them as he was supposed to. He has a VA appt scheduled on 6/21. I just hope these meds will kick in and help soon as I am afraid he will self destruct before the appt.

I am worried that he has a medical condition aside from the psychiatric issues (he seriously lost 50 pounds in one month and yet eats regularly and a lot of high calorie snacks)He is wearing smaller clothes than when I met him 12 years ago and he was thin back then as well. He is on the toilet constantly. I am talking he poops multiple times a day-almost every time we went out on vaca-he had to stop and poop in the restaurant, at the beach-and he is in there between 15-30 minutes each time.

Others have suggested drugs. I know it is not drugs. He is drug testing routinely through the va and has been for years and has never been a drug user. He does not drink at all and has been completely sober for about 5 years.

Now on top of all this nonsense-my ss14 is acting creepy as hell. He came home after our vaca and did apologize for the way he's been treating me (which sounds good but really for him is creepy as hell), but last night he and my ds13 got into an alteracation. Dh and I were on teh front porch and all of a sudden we hear my ds13 screaming "get away from me, get away from me, get away from me". Evidently there was some sort of situation in which my ds was bouncing a large ball on the floor, it annoyed ss, he asked him to stop, my ds said no and then there was pushing, punching, and head locks. My dd10 was in the room and both her and my ds13 gave same report that ss started pushing ds so he hit him (not punched but smacked at him)to which he then put my ds in a headlock and pushed him up against the wall. My ds elbowed him in the chest trying to get away from him so ss elbowed him in the chest back. SS's account changed (he told it to us twice)first ds was throwing the ball at him-then he said just bouncing-the first time he said he pushed him first-the second time he said my ds started the physical stuff.

I talked to my ds about not engaging ss in conflicts, not annoying, etc-no physical stuff etc-so I also went and tried to talk to ss and he literally totally creeped me out. I just went up and told him that it is unacceptable to resort to physical means simply because someone is annoying you-didnt yell at him or anything of the sort. He then changed his story and I did call him out on that and told him that dd10 gave a story consistent with ds13's. Didnt belabor the point-just said no physical stuff or I'm calling the police next time and letting them figure it out. So then ss suggests that dh needs to put cameras in the house "so we can find out what's really going on here"-my dh did actually install a camera in the garage when all of his stuff was moving about, missing and what he found was that it was ss. I reminded ss of this-and he just looked at me and smiled. Just this big creepy smile and he said, "you are lying". I said, No, I dont lie-and he assured me that I did. I asked him to give me an example and he could not think of one-but just kept smiling and saying I was a liar. I was a had a picture as it was such a creepy smile and creepy kind of look in his eyes that it actually frigtened me.

So yeah, I feel like I am living with two mentally ill individuals. I have no clue what to do. I do not feel I can leave-my dh is truly ill and I do not feel I can desert him when he needs help. He is not aggressive or causing danger or harm just totally wrapped up in own fantasy world. He occassionally exits the world and makes supper or something like that so he has not lost all contact with reality-and at times seems perfectly normal. Much of vacation he seemed perfectly normal-we went to the beach, movies, shopping-all very normal. But as soon as he gets on topic-it is clear that he feels he is being persecuted in various ways. He has told me that he can push these thoughts aside for periods of time, but that eventually they came back and he feels he has to release them (these thoughts to him are the things that are being done to him).

Being in the mental health field, I am pretty sure he has a delusional disorder however, these folks are extrememly hard to convince that there thoughts are not reality. Meds do help-so i am hoping that once his kick in things will be better. But I am also worried that there is even more going on with him due to the physical symptoms.

Sorry for the long vent-just handling this on a day to day basis is wiping me out and I needed to get it off my chest. Thanks