I haven't written in a while but that doesn't mean things are any better. Just get tired of repeating the same problems but today I have to write. What do you do when your DH won't listen to you when you say you don't want to talk about it? I have told you before what's wrong, you get upset and think it's not a big deal, then you get upset with me that I think so. Nothing gets resolved and I'm back to crying and your son is back to treating me like dirt. (Which I have to be careful saying that because he uses my words now!) How many times do I have to tell you that? What I really want to say is "Man the hell up! Discipline your child and don't get angry with me when I tell you how I feel, because I'm not telling you the exact words I want to tell you. What I want to say is I DESPISE your bratty ass child. He is the most god-awful child I have ever met in my entire life. He wants you all by himself and you don't see that. I am scared to death of your child! He has flung himself on the floor and has told me that he was going to have me arrested for it. He deliberately lies and I feel like I have to constantly defend myself in order to survive. I want to be a child-life specialist. If I get arrested or accused of hurting or doing something wrong to this child, my life is ruined. But no one seems to care. I have tried everything I can but your child sickens me. I used to love him. I have known him for the majority of his life. But now that he lives with us, away from your parents who raised him. Yes your parents not you. You have never lived on your own. You have lived with them since we moved in together. So I have their hateful voices in my head every time I talk to your child too. I plan on going to counseling as soon as my insurance kicks in. I know I can't afford the insurance but I want to get ME back. I don't want to leave him because I LOVE him, I just do not love his son.