The aftermath

I still have extreme anxiety caused by the memories of 4 years of visitation rages toward me and my stbx blaming me for his daughter's behavior. Or even worse blaming my DD. I can't get it out of my head how traumatic those visitations...sometimes lasting 10 days at a time...would be for myself and my daughter. I can't take those years back. The visitations were so horrible with her being mean, ordering me around and then insist on sleeping in bed with daddy. I wish I didn't let it go on so long.

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The memories will fade

I was reading back through your blogs, wow. I, too, had those anxious feelings about the 3 SKs and all the issues for years. I really believe I had PTSD, still do, somewhat. But, the bad memories have faded over time and yours will, too. Our brains do us a favor, I think, by dimming the bad memories. Every day will be better now as you start this good, new chapter. Good luck.

My SDs haven't come to my

My SDs haven't come to my house regularly since about 2013, but I still get bouts of very strong feelings, mainly rage, about how I was treated in that decade + that I saw them EOW. It does fade in time, but the memories linger on, as they say. Just be glad you got out, eventually.

I am so sorry you still have

I am so sorry you still have those lingering feelings. I know what that is like. One positive thing is you know what you absolutely will not tolerate in the future and as little red flags start to show- those will be GIANT beacons to you to get out of there FAST.