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Submitted by DMartin0118 on Wed, 08/26/2009 - 9:08pm

I finally got counseling kind of scheduled. I called today and while she doesn't have anything open for the evenings she is putting me on her cancellation list to call. Hopefully it won't take too long. She requested that I start out coming alone. I guess she needs to assess the situation before involving DH. I'm just not sure I'm really going to be able to open up to her.

I know its not the reason, but I feel like a crazy person going to see a therapist...

But then, I guess I am going a little crazy with the way life is going.

Hehe oh BM dear...

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Submitted by DMartin0118 on Tue, 08/25/2009 - 4:28pm

So I asked BM why we are still paying her when we get SD half of the time and she doesnt have to pay rent or anything. Her response? "Well I'll let you ask them when we go back in 2 years to do it. They automatically do it every 3 years so you don't thing that it's me making them." And of course I let her know that in this town there are so many single fathers that I know perfectly well that a parent has to request in NC for the child support to be re evaluated. Funny thing is, I'd be thrilled if she took me today because the child support would just be lowered.

Guess not...

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Submitted by DMartin0118 on Sun, 08/23/2009 - 3:40pm

Well after my post ranting about being unhappy I finally had the talk with my husband yesterday. I told him I wanted a divorce because I was making us both miserable. He wasn't happy about it of course but didn't show too much. Then he got really upset and sad... I laid with him and told him that I was sorry. But I knew that wasn't good enough.

So sorry to ramble.

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Submitted by DMartin0118 on Sat, 08/22/2009 - 10:02am

I am so beyond tired of being unhappy.

I'm 21 and Ive been married for 2 1/2 years to a marine. We got married very quickly (4 months after meeting, January 2007) because he was deploying in July 2007 and I love him with everything in me. But sometimes that isn't enough.

We found out that we were pregnant in February 2007. A week before my appointment (May 1st) I stopped feeling pregnant. At my appointment they discovered I'd miscarried.