So now I see why some moms are glad when summer is over...I never felt that way with my BioD but now having SS7 I understand. First day and he starts on my instantly. What could I have possibly done other than be in the house, oh wait that's right, that's all it takes.

Saturday morning his Dad was getting ready to go up to the ballfield to help do some work and SS7 was going to go with him so I made sure like always that I got his breakfast ready. Then he started on me. I said you know your Dad is here why are you acting this way and he actually said, "I'll stop when he comes out." Are you freaking kidding me!!! How nice to know where I stand.

If you haven't seen my "so confused" post. Here is the deal: SS7's mother was a mom that let him do whatever, whenever-didn't matter if it was safe or not-hence the reason he hates me. I am a mom that is concerned and will make sure that children that live with me are as safe as possible. For instance one day he was mad at me and when I walked in his room he was sticking things in the electrical outlet. I pushed the toy out of his hand and he screamed that I hurt him...would he rather me let him get shocked (by the way this was not the first time I told him not to do it)? He has 2 half sisters by his mother (one who was very sexually active very young, the other more rebellious than most 13 year olds) and a half brother who is 19 with 4 children, no job, has had a criminal record since he was 6 and just got out of jail for the 4th time in the last year - way to go justice system. I won't go into detail about all of the arrests but let's just say he impersonates law enforcement... My SS has seen police officers come into his mother's house and take his brother away in handcuffs, his mother smoking things that weren't tobacco, and a lot of other things I won't mention. Now to the bad part, his mother passed away 18 months ago.

Before she passed he really liked me, now I am literallly the wicked witch. The crappy part is I can't prove anything since his mother is gone. She said some horrible stuff about me and honestly about SS7 too. She called my DH mother and told her that if she wouldn't have had my SS than DH woudldn't have left (WHILE MY SS WAS SITTING BESIDE HER) my MIL heard him crying in the background. Can we say mother of the year award???????

I understand his loyalty to his mom-totally. Sad thing is it is getting harder and harder to deal with the pure hatred, contempt and anger that I alone get from him. Sure he gets upset with his Dad but the anger w/me is unreal. He gets so mad that he screams, attempts to throw things at me, hits me, and while doing all of this he never looks at me just the ceiling.

Numerous psych consults have said ODD, PTSD, ADHD, and mulitple anxiety disorders are a lot of the issues. However, what I see are just actions from a kid that doesn't want to listen since he didn't have to the first full 5 years of his life and. Besides the ADHD meds are to help him focus not to be "a good boy" as he puts it, and he has said that many times. If it were to make him a good boy why is he still behaving worse than any child I have ever seen or met? And that's no exaggeration, believe me.

So anyway, any suggestions on how I should go about working through this during the summer? I will be starting work again soon but we will only need a sitter for 2 hours a day, unfortunately my BioD will not be watching him because he feels he is the boss (which he tells me on a daily basis). Once we get caught up on our bills it won't be so hard to afford a sitter but right now we are totally strapped-and the reason I quit working was to be home with him to help him-what a flippin joke. If anything that made it worse.

Not to mention I will be working nights-it's a good job and I can't wait but honestly I worry about my relationship with my BioD and my DH. SS7's goal is to get me out of his and my DH's life. I fear that this night job will do it. Financially and benefit wise we need me to get this job but what do I do when DH and I really have no time together - right now at least we can sit on the couch, even with him trying to get in the middle and stop us from talking or just spending time alone.

Really just feeling down today, hopefully tomorrow will be better