Ok, so we're not together anymore. We've talked a LOT these past few days, and I've still gone to his house to hang out. I adore his kids, and his 2yo adores me. he's always climbing on me and hugging me if he's gone even one day without seeing me. it's funny and cute all at the same time. J has also started not spoiling his son as much. he still lets Z sleep with him, but is much more willing to stand up to Z when 2yo acts jealous. I was over there last friday, and J went to take a nap, leaving me up with Z. this was HUGE. he's NEVER done that before. He's always had an attitude that he has to do EVERYTHING. He's finally starting to show that he knows i not only don't mind helping out, but that i like it. this is a HUGE step forward. We're both hoping to still work this out, but we each have a bunch of issues to work out, both individually and as a couple, so we're staying friends, and working through them together. If we can't work it out, i've already said that I won't just walk out of his life, because Z has had too many people do that already in his young life, and i'm not gonna add one more person to that long list. he already doesn't get to see mommy very much. i'm not gonna be one more "mommy figure" that he doesn't get to see much. Z loves me, I love him. J and I just have a BUNCH of stuff to work out. We've agreed to stay friends, but still not date anyone else until we can see if we can work all this out. If we can't, then we'll move on. I'm feeling very hopeful. I don't want a life of misery; far from it. but in so many ways he makes me happy, so if we can work it out, then i plan to at least try.