I've been reading a lot of posts on here about how people harbor ill feelings toward their stepchildren and equate it to the BM being a lunatic. I have a similar but opposite problem. BM is extremely loving to my 3-year-old SS. If anything, I would complain that he is spoiled with attention. DH & BM share him 1/2 & 1/2. At his mom's, he is the only child with an occassional half brother. Here, he shares the home with at least 1 & up to 5 other step or half siblings. That can sometimes be problematic. Other than that, he's a great kid. Listens well, etc. So why tf do I hate him so freaking bad? He just drives me insane. The sound of his whiny little voice, his stupid face... ug. I feel horrible for writing these mean things about this innocent child who is already suffering from his parents' divorce. Please don't judge me for this. I know it's wrong. But I feel like if I can't get these feelings out I'll explode. I hate it when DH is more tolerant of him. I just want to say "Quit spoiling the little shit!!" He also has a teenage daughter whom I adore. I can't say I love her as much as I love my own. I mean let's face it. The feeling you have for your own blood & flesh is something you simply cannot duplicate. But I do love her & genuinely enjoy having her in my life. (Her mother is one of the previously mentioned lunatics and hardly sees her.) I am proud of these not-necessarily-motherly, yet warm, accepting, supportive feelings I have toward her. I am NOT proud of the feelings I have for SS. I don't expect myself to love him like one of my own. I'd just be happy if I didn't have to fight so hard against treating him differently from my own. I try to always be fair, but you can only hide such bitterness so much. I try not to let him, or my DH see how annoyed & disgusted I am, but I'm always scared they will see through me. I'd be perfectly happy faking it, but I don't know how. Any tips on faking it?